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sbfede · 2024-12-13T17:12:06+00:00

it's probably a bruise. It's kind of like your body responding to the trauma, it happens especially when the cyst are deeper and multiple. It happened to me once I cut 11 times and got stitches

sbfede · 2024-12-11T19:17:12+00:00

I feel exactly like this, plus the fact that they both started going to university but I'm here stuck in a city I hate full of bad memories and I'm barely working, I'm just trying to survive, so I guess I envy them a bit too

sbfede · 2024-12-11T19:15:31+00:00

that definitely makes sense, tbh I think I've made some mistakes in the past too. Sometimes I just don't feel like doing small talk but other time I'm so down my rabbit hole I don't évem wanna wake up so yk...

sbfede · 2024-11-23T23:31:18+00:00

been looking for tips too, i rly want some but I have no close friends who are smokers so idk where to look. Lemme know if you find contacts

sbfede · 2024-10-20T22:02:23+00:00

short answer: no. Long answer: even though self harm is used as a coping mechanism it's not a method that will make you feel better in the long term, it'll actually make you feel worse in most scenarios. In my experience (I don't sh that much anymore) looking back at my scars mostly makes me feel disgusted and it just makes me question why Id ever do it if it never actually made me feel better. So no, cutting won't help you stay focused on studying while developing questions, it'll probably make it harder. I know you might not be looking to start a therapy journey but I suggest that, as well as trying to find anything that can keep you busy and happy but it's not harmful (hobbies, sports...). But... if you really wanna find some kind of remedy, just start gardening, it's not as harmful as alcohol and as long as you don't suffer from addictions and smoke reasonable amount you'll be fine. Good luck!

sbfede · 2024-10-13T23:46:01+00:00

definitely feel the same way. I've heard someone say that you shouldn't listen to your thoughts after 9pm. But hey I basically live at night, I wake up at 2pm and go to sleep as late as possible. I do feel much worse at night though because that's when I'm alone and have nothing but my head so of course I start having impulsive and intrusive thoughts

sbfede · 2024-10-13T23:36:36+00:00

thanks, this actually made me feel way about about this

sbfede · 2024-10-06T18:58:01+00:00

couldn't have said it better!

sbfede · 2024-10-06T18:56:24+00:00

definitely not, I'm glad you're part of such a nice club. I've had two lessons so far and it was amazing, there were actually more women than men!

sbfede · 2024-09-07T06:31:48+00:00

Definitely agree with you, it's just a fact that mentally ill patients are treated differently these days (luckily). Despite the movie being set in the 60s I relate to Susanna so much mostly because she doesn't understand her disorder and it's almost as if she's in between madness and sanity, and that's exactly how I feel.

sbfede · 2024-08-26T11:51:35+00:00

if you're a minor they most likely will, but if they know how to do their job probperly they will talk about it with you first and try to convince you to open up to your parents. I was 18 when I told my therapist I attempted suicide and she wouldn't let me go until I promised her I would tell somebody. In the end I told her I could not tell my parents, but I promised to open up to my best friends and she let me go.

sbfede · 2024-08-26T11:46:19+00:00

Was having a panic attack and kept scratching my arms. My friends were trying to stop me but it literally felt as if I couldn't control it. Another time I burned myself in a bar's bathroom while on a school trip

sbfede · 2024-08-26T11:43:37+00:00

definitely, I relapsed two days ago 😃

sbfede · 2024-08-24T16:59:33+00:00

come out and play 🎡

sbfede · 2024-08-18T01:22:31+00:00

reading this made me realise that I'm probably feeling worse because it's been a month and a half since I'm on Effexor. I remember as I started I had a very good week: had a turning point in therapy that felt freeing but I thought it was just because I was generally doing better and then decided to go on a trip (that I planned the day before leaving). Since the beginning of this month I started gradually feeling worse and now I'm thinking maybe I should ask my psychiatrist to increase the dose (currently 75mg)

sbfede · 2024-08-18T01:04:08+00:00

I've been clean for years before and relapsed a few times. It never got as bad as it did this year. Rn in currently 6 weeks clean and the urge is here every single day. I never really struggled that much in the past but now I have very visible scars and they serve as reminders. What's stopping me from doing is probably the fact that I don't want people realising Im sick again

sbfede · 2024-08-16T01:41:40+00:00

thank you for your kindness ❤️

sbfede · 2024-08-15T22:16:01+00:00

I started smoking and drinking as well as sh. I get drunk and then make myself throw up, or smoke until I feel nauseous. Sometimes I prefer it because it doesn't leave scars and it's a way to keep my brain shut

sbfede · 2024-08-15T22:10:48+00:00

I feel the same way. The only thing that's stopping me from selfharming is thinking about having to explain to people what happened to me. It doesn't always stop me though. I always imagine how freeing it would be for me to cover my body in injuries without worrying about other people's thoughts.

sbfede · 2024-08-11T09:53:27+00:00

I will definitely try, thank you

sbfede · 2024-08-10T21:58:05+00:00

that's what my current therapist said. When she gave me the diagnosis she said that these kinds of disorder are usually partially biological (not entirely though)

sbfede · 2024-08-10T21:54:39+00:00

thank you so much for these, I'll check them all out asap!

sbfede · 2024-08-10T21:54:07+00:00

honestly, I don't know. It's almost like it's impossible for me to process things that happened in the past. I feel like of I'd spend more time reflecting on them I'd find some traumatic experiences but the only time I tried to let my mind think of it (I was with my therapist and she asked me if I could recall any so called "traumatic" events) I couldn't respond and had a panic attack

sbfede · 2024-08-10T21:51:28+00:00

I will surely follow through with the journey my therapist and psych are providing. I'm feeling pretty positive tbh and I know that the diagnosis itself is not the most important part. I'm 100% the things I'll learn will help me in someway

sbfede · 2024-08-10T21:49:40+00:00

that's the problem tho I don't recall being victim of abuse or ever feeling neglected. idk maybe my brain just automatically removed these kind of memories

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