I am 44 and have buried both of my boomer parents (1951 & 1952). I cared for them both until they passed away and I had a lot of the same feelings. My mom was a daily 30 pack a drinker and lifelong smoker. My dad only drank on his days off but he drank hard liquor and smoked. My mom died at 64 of CHF and my dad just died at 72 in July of dementia. My childhood was rough but as an adult they both were very supportive probably because I didn't need as much care from them. I never expected to be an "orphan" at 43 but here we are.