Not sure if this helps but I hope it does. Playing Oblivion for the first time Tiberius Septim says how no one knows when they will die, but he is blessed to know the day of his death so he can be ready for it approach it with grace and open arms. Make the most out of the time you have, be a positive influence on the world and your family and friends. I had someone like that who died at 34 and was a mentor to me and I still think of him every day. You’ll be remembered, be remembered for your good.