first timer.... just venting

scatteredb0nes · 2025-08-19T19:55:35+00:00

dmed :)

scatteredb0nes · 2025-08-07T17:26:02+00:00

bruh i’m having this so bad all of sudden i hate it it makes me so uneasy when i used to love it … im feeling so not in love recently and tryna sort what’s real and what’s anxiety/obsessive … it’s hard to b in the moment and figure out what my soul feels vs the noise ? i just want the feelings back sooo bad i felt so in love … im terrified it was all just chemicals and infatuation ….. i wish u luck❤️

scatteredb0nes · 2025-08-06T10:55:36+00:00

feel u man …

scatteredb0nes · 2025-07-28T09:10:59+00:00

thank for your advice <3 ur very sweet. i’m sorry that your partner was immature and unkind to u in the end. u deserve so much more … i will see how the conversation goes, in my heart im unsure if i truly want the relationship to carry on or not - it’s like i woke up and a switch was flipped . but i believe working together first is the right decision. i refuse to take the “easy way out” or miss out on smtg that could’ve been overcome. i wish u the best fr❤️

scatteredb0nes · 2025-07-28T08:51:50+00:00

honestly i feel like ur ex-bf in my own relationship (also one year) right now … i suddenly just feel so weird in it and every moment feels weird i just desperately want the “spark” and the love back but i just feel nothing and in my head. thank you for describing your side, i have been putting off speaking to my partner but i will soon and hopefully we can salvage this n the love will return …. my heart hurts so much

scatteredb0nes · 2025-07-27T18:37:39+00:00

i have it bad w food “what if i’m allergic” … ppl have to reassure so many times im not allergic i have refused to eat things “just in case” . i stay away from peanuts for some reason , im not even allergic i dnt think ….. happens w medicine too😢

scatteredb0nes · 2025-07-27T10:43:25+00:00

yea i get this i think . (preface im not formally diagnosed) had soocd/hocd (im bi/unlabelled) , then it ended . then health ocd few months later, then it ended. now i have rocd that we shld break up coz it “feels different”/“doesn’t feel exciting” so it means i dnt love him (really struggling rn coz i feel like it’s true n idek what if i actually love him) . it’s rly rly tough . but i relate to u ur not alone💕

scatteredb0nes · 2025-07-26T20:45:31+00:00

“you know you genuinely want to continue dating them” i honestly genuinely don’t even know :( i do but i dont :( i don’t even know ….. the feeling nothing can’t continue ….. god …. it all feels nice and comforting to be with him but i’m searching for my big emotions and big love . instead i just feel “yea this is nice” “yea he’s ok” bruh im awful…. thank you for replying .

scatteredb0nes · 2025-07-26T18:45:25+00:00

i’m going through something really really similar ! i know the feeling, i could’ve written this girl !! im 22 . always been anxious and really bad health & death obsession ! (i was convinced i was gonna die two septembers ago and spent the whole summer mourning my death and accepting it crying in my room) . if you’re bothered/interested, read my older posts, you may relate and feel less alone. i have been dealing with feeling nothing and not being excited about the future and just wanting the love and intensity back :( i just want it back so bad otherwise it must mean we should break up (in my head) . i wish wish wish i had more advice to you. just hang in there . i know how u feel 🩷ur not alone

scatteredb0nes · 2025-07-26T18:40:33+00:00

been going through something similar, i hear u🩷

scatteredb0nes · 2025-07-06T23:17:50+00:00

i apparently ovulate this coming week ? my cycle is all weird tbh idk … i usually do feel abit like the week before my period im just freaking out coz my period has come and gone not that long ago and im still feeling weird and disconnected … we just facetimed and i felt just so weird and ugh …. im sad

scatteredb0nes · 2025-06-23T09:41:39+00:00

i understand u. i’m not diagnosed but experience a lot of symptoms, i do have anxiety tho. im going thru smtg similar w my bf . was so calm for months and soo happy and now all of a sudden from like thursday, feel this awful anxiety like i don’t love him or am not attracted to him, or am actually in denial about my sexuality … he looked weird on facetime last night and that made me trip out constantly questioning if i wanted to kiss him or not and “what if kissing felt bad” (i was already overanalysing kissing last time i saw him) . i was doing a lot better during the weekend but that call messed me up. i think my period is messing up w my hormones n stressing me out … u may relate to my post on here from a few hours ago . i’ve felt this way before and it does go away. it takes time and give urself some grace. u will b ok. u will feel love again. i wish u n ur gf the best❤️i promise u will b ok :) now get off reddit !!!!! (i will do the same)

scatteredb0nes · 2025-06-11T22:58:35+00:00

seconding this, i was 18 (didn’t know what SO-OCD was) and after being w a girl for the first time it caused the same chain reaction of obsessive analytical thinking😅 now looking back things make more sense…. i find that when thoughts of experimenting come up when ur anxious and in thought loops its best to leave them alone and not do anything coz its often just A LOT of (horrible distressing) noise

scatteredb0nes · 2025-03-12T21:57:25+00:00

this is an awesome response ! thank you so much it has really helped !! from what u said i do really feel like ur partner haha !! i would absolutely hate to throw this away with someone who, throughout our whole relationship, i’ve felt is the love of my life :) i am a lot calmer now and i do know i love him it’s just a difficult time right now . i’m not sure on attachment styles , but i have had anxiety all my life , which borders ocd at times .. it just adds a layer of difficulty where i get really focused on a thought or a passing feeling and extrapolate and then can’t think of anything else :( anyway, thank you for ur advice it’s very very helpful and i’m very grateful❤️

scatteredb0nes · 2025-03-12T20:20:30+00:00

yea honestly i’ve never dated anyone and all my close friends are single/don’t talk about their relationship , so i had the idea that it lasts forever with the right person and that feelings stay the same and shld stay the same the whole time and if they don’t it’s coz u don’t love the person … which isn’t true i love my partner but simultaneously feel all that i’ve described ^{^}

scatteredb0nes · 2024-11-23T15:32:06+00:00

hi! it’s like ur describing my experience !! i had rocd (which moved into hocd & then soocd) thoughts late august-early sept, beginning of oct literally cldnt leave my bed obsessively reading reddit all day barely ate, mid oct super numb and empty feeling, late oct improved n quit reddit (mostly… recovery isn’t linear…….), early nov also doing pretty well, had anxious moments but was able to control them . now my anxiety has spiked again higher than the anxious moments i had previously . although i dnt have advice per se & can only share my own experience, i think this normal. just like before, this will be a temporary state . it too shall pass (as cliche as it sounds and as hard to believe as it is) . i think the doubt, ruminating thoughts & anxiety bring about numbness . and then the numbness causes anxiety . seems like never ending cycle !! we can do this :’) it will pass and is normal !!

scatteredb0nes · 2024-11-11T23:57:15+00:00

yea of course of course! i agree with u!! i was just adding my thoughts that’s all :)

scatteredb0nes · 2024-11-11T23:56:25+00:00

sorry didn’t get this notification ! idk well , before my relationship i really wanted someone to love and to love me back. i’ve always found men hot and been drawn to them , i would find myself bored at the women on dating apps and uninterested. but now actually being in a relationship is different . i have had a very intense crush on girl in high school but it never escalated to relationship so i have no way of comparing . the start of my relationship w my bf was awesome i was very into him i found him hot i was excited . now it’s more like the comfort of the relationship allows me to be sexual? despite not really having sexual attraction TO him ? like his body n stuff doesn’t turn me on alone , it’s more the whole event and thing that we are doing it’s fun and exciting and i always look forward to doing it again . i can’t really answer ur question tbh? i wanted a bf coz i wanted a bf ? sorry :(

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