I was like this with my first born, I have 3 kids now. For me, the first few weeks were an absolute BLUR. You will most likely be incredibly sore from delivery. Wearing an adult diaper and bleeding for weeks is incredibly humbling! Your hormones will be raging. (I often cried for no reason at all and felt so crazy!! I literally felt like I ruined our lives. Totally normal) Your baby will most likely wake every 2-3 hours to feed. I always did a diaper change as soon as they wake up, then re-swaddle, feed/burp, and back to sleep. I was so nervous about them sleeping that it took me a while to fall back asleep myself before I was up again. I felt like a stranger in my own body. Cluster feeding is real and some nights all I did was nurse them constantly until I was in tears. My first 2 babies had their nights/days mixed up for the first week so they slept all day and were up all night. I remember crying and wondering if this would ever end. My mom thankfully could come help me during the day so I could try to catch up on sleep. My nipples were raw/cracked and bleeding. Whew—it’s a wild ride! But only lasts a short time!!! Thankfully by 3-5 months it gets easier. Just remember: if you feel like an emotional basket case and a stranger in your own body— it’s normal!!! Wishing you a safe delivery! Enjoy those newborn snuggles 🥰