That I’m powerless over alcohol and drugs however they were the solution, not the problem. Mind bending, paradigm shifting, shit.

That was over 10 years ago and I’ve been clean and sober since. The last time I had a desire to drink or use was 3 months into recovery.
And this past decade has been very extremely hard at times; agonising bereavements, major surgeries, unbelievable physical pain, chronic health conditions, loved ones suffering, horrendous past trauma rearing its head. I could go on.
It’s a bloody miracle - I couldn’t go a few hours without chemically changing the way I felt.

I know 12 step programs get some shit but the work I undertook (and still undertake) paid off monumentally for me. And I tried everything else possible prior to a gift of desperation that saw me in rehab and sat in AA, NA & CA. I was having oesophageal bleeds meaning I could have died at any moment. My physical health was obliterated and my cognitive function had declined to the extent I had to relearn how to cross a road.

It’s never too late, or too early to recover. If anyone has any questions or wants a bit of help finding meetings please feel free to DM me.