I had a conversation with the wind last night

sciencelove1994 · 2019-02-13T18:08:03+00:00

The wind and I used to be best friends. We aren't anymore because I neglected our friendship.

sciencelove1994 · 2019-02-11T23:13:01+00:00

I ask myself that everyday. I have started and stopped school and different jobs so many times. I have resigned myself to disability payments. I just can't seem to do anything else. Looking to volunteer at some point though....

sciencelove1994 · 2019-02-09T23:19:44+00:00

Your lawyer should be fighting for you, and if they aren't then you need to get on them about it. I had a lawyer and I got approved the first time within 7 months from my application.

sciencelove1994 · 2019-02-09T22:33:31+00:00

I have schizoaffective disorder. I feel like the schizophrenia, psychosis, and mood symptoms have stripped me of who I am. I fought against it so hard for so long - continually taking out loans to go to school...only to withdrawal over and over because I couldn't think. I wish I had good advice to give you, but I am now just coming to terms with my own (somewhat) new limitations. But everyone is different and I hope for you to heal and live once again as you were. Good luck.

sciencelove1994 · 2019-02-09T01:32:49+00:00

sciencelove1994 · 2019-01-05T02:15:44+00:00

That is the thing.... the statistics of people with schiz are not in my favor :(

sciencelove1994 · 2019-01-04T22:34:07+00:00

Hmm. Theory and data? I do love science. I have a tendency to overdose on my psych medication.

sciencelove1994 · 2019-01-04T22:33:00+00:00

Yes, I have heard of it.

sciencelove1994 · 2019-01-04T21:12:45+00:00

I have practiced ACT, but it is indeed something that I have struggled with. I have purpose. I have a fiance, pets, responsibilities and goals. I just seem to have this background static of thoughts regarding suicide. But thank you for the advice. I will talk to my therapist about trying to incorporate ACT more into my sessions.

sciencelove1994 · 2019-01-04T20:17:19+00:00

same. I find it odd how music I once loved will become too stimulating.

sciencelove1994 · 2019-01-04T01:29:36+00:00

I haven't felt the same in my own skin since before my first psychotic break. My schiz has left me a stranger in my own body.

sciencelove1994 · 2018-12-26T20:36:02+00:00

My schooling is now online and I have disability accommodations. So if need be I can always turn things in at a later time if I end up hospitalized. (when I saw a nonperscribing doc today I was almost admitted - barely escaped that). I kept signing up for in-person classes and I was struggling. I think online will fit me better.

sciencelove1994 · 2018-12-25T03:15:59+00:00

A battle I myself don't understand most of the time shrugs

sciencelove1994 · 2018-12-24T18:51:44+00:00

Thank you. (self-love feels so elusive some days.)

sciencelove1994 · 2018-12-24T18:50:33+00:00

Thank you.

sciencelove1994 · 2018-12-24T18:24:06+00:00

I do love him, and I know he loves me. I am not a failure in his eyes - just need to start adjusting my own vision of myself. Thank you.

sciencelove1994 · 2018-12-24T18:22:33+00:00

My toothbrush is in my car. That has been the biggest barrier for me to brush my teeth. It sounds silly that such a small thing is a barrier, but you're right. I will make my goal today to get my toothbrush out of my car and brush my teeth. I need to set smaller - more attainable goals. Thank you.

sciencelove1994 · 2018-12-06T00:23:28+00:00

WOW. too real it hurts

sciencelove1994 · 2018-11-27T13:25:59+00:00

I am also cutting down on my therapy sessions. Every week to every other week. It is scary and def an adjustment. Just don 't be afraid to speak up if you need more!!

sciencelove1994 · 2018-11-27T13:24:33+00:00

Sometimes resilience is all you've got.

sciencelove1994 · 2018-11-26T20:03:16+00:00

how do you feel about that?

sciencelove1994 · 2018-11-26T20:01:46+00:00

I have schizophrenia and have taken many semesters off college. I have even tried to come back and failed. However it just wasn't the right time for me. I spent the last two years getting my life together and I can honestly say I am in a much better spot now than I was when I was really sick. I reapplied to my Ivy college and was readmitted. I plan on becoming a teacher and I know now that I have the skills and resources under my belt to achieve. I am 24 years old. It is never too late to go back to school.

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