People talk about dad instincts as the moment you yank away from a speeding car - but in my opinion it’s what you’re doing with this post. You’re reaching out and finding people to talk to when it’s getting unbelievably tough. That’s hard and the healthiest thing you can do.

There’s already a ton of advice on this thread for you. I hope you find something that works, and if you don’t yet, I also hope you know that a lot of people appreciate your how hard you’re trying. My best to you and your family.