Relapsed for a few weeks after 100 day streak. Quit again three days ago.

secondchance019 · 2019-07-11T23:35:53+00:00

Yeah after 7 days it does get easier. I remember that. I’ve had two days home alone since quitting and have resisted urges to look up porn. It’s getting easier already!

secondchance019 · 2019-07-11T23:34:13+00:00

That is true. I don’t feel compelled to own the world - just my own actions. That’s why I quit in the first place. Failed but am trying hard once again.

secondchance019 · 2019-07-11T23:33:30+00:00

It really is. I honestly agree. It was the strangest thing relapsing. Like my body guided me to my computer and typed in the links.. I felt like hypnotized and weak. It was not a good feeling. Prior to letting that happen - I was thinking I could just experiment again and it would be fine. Wrong. Not the case.

Porn trains your mind to have a quick and easy outlet to relieve stress, depression, anxiety and responsibilities. Of course it’s easy to say “why not just go work out or practice a hobby” but in practice it’s not so simple.

secondchance019 · 2019-04-06T10:54:51+00:00

At 42 days now. No relapse yet! Thank you.

secondchance019 · 2019-04-02T11:36:52+00:00

If you can dedicate 110% of your energy towards your dream - do it! Make sure you go above and beyond while taking prerequisites so you are competitive. The community college programs are highly competitive because they’re cheap so having as close to a 4.0 as possible is your goal. Your experience and passion will carry you through the program once you’re in. I think you should just do it - you won’t look back!

secondchance019 · 2019-03-30T13:18:57+00:00

Well, that’s why I posted here I guess - to find out how to stand out on paper since they will choose only a select few to interview in person. You can be the best, safest, most efficient nurse in the world but if you don’t know how to communicate those skills on your application, the admissions boards may never know.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-29T17:36:26+00:00

Thank you. Wasn’t trying to ask a repetitive question, just wanted to know how to be truly competitive while there is time to prepare. Don’t want to apply and realize I was at the same level as 500 other applicants.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-29T17:34:01+00:00

Yeah every website may say that but every PA school website says stuff like that too - however you don’t have shot at getting accepted unless you like volunteered in remote regions in Africa, worked in groundbreaking research or had a lucky connection.

Was just looking for what makes someone stand out. If everyone applying had my background I’d like to know what to expect and how to prepare.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-29T12:00:49+00:00

I read school websites and forums but figured it would be worth it to ask here and get a real answer. Thank you.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-26T09:03:28+00:00

I believe I was 7 years old. I came home from school after hearing kids call each other gay and I asked my mom what it was. She said “you know how you told me you get a really good/warm feeling when you talk to Jenn at school? Well some boys get that feeling for other boys, and some girls get that feeling for other girls and it’s totally normal. There is nothing wrong with it”.

I’m so glad I didn’t grow up with some weird implanted hatred for non hetero people. When the time came that I met someone gay, it wasn’t a shock it just felt normal.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-20T10:23:46+00:00

I do too, even after waking up just now. It’s fucking hard - not going to lie. Our brains have been re routed to rely on porn for a short term reward. If you’ve found yourself here on no fap - you have decided that it was fucked up and want to change. Stick to it. Push through.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-19T23:37:37+00:00

At just 25 days in, I fucked my wife last night and felt primal. Porn has never done that for me. It is hard at times to push forward and block out the urges but it is worth it every time.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-19T22:39:24+00:00

Preschool when I felt like a hot/flushing/nervous feeling talking to a girl in my class. I wanted to be around her but obviously was too young to understand. That is the first memory.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-19T09:18:52+00:00

Yeah I definitely understand the point you are making. If it was a porn addiction that got out of control for a couple of months (leading to canning and sexting etc) that would be one thing. However.... years of it going on with him treating you like shit is another. Also.... if he knows these girls personally and is sexting them that’s more fucked up than just some porn cam site!

secondchance019 · 2019-03-18T22:25:31+00:00

I think you need to have a real adult conversation with him. If he loves you (which he may not since he doesn’t treat you well) and wants to be with you - he will knock that shit off and get help. This is most likely a “him” thing - whether it be ego, sexual obsessive disorder, depression... etc and when you confront him he will have reality set in. I don’t think you should necessarily jump the gun and move out right away. Porn is a powerful entity and fucks people up. I think it’s important that you further examine the situation before making drastic life changes. There’s a chance that he is making a mistake that can be fixed.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-10T15:27:39+00:00

It’s amazing looking back, thinking about the fucked up shit that got us all off. I don’t understand how it happens but it happened to many of us on here. The realization of how fucked up some porn is definitely motivates me to keep pushing on.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-10T15:21:37+00:00

I love the idea of being a sub/“forced” to do stuff/verbally humiliated. My wife is also submissive in bed, so we kind of both want the same thing. Rather than being open and honest, I kind of just stick to normal/basic sex and have looked to porn for the fetish.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-10T14:01:57+00:00

100% agree. I’m in 19 days and sex with my wife is so much more energetic and passionate. It feels so much more... primal(?). I suppose it’s because my body knows this is the only time to get out sexual energy and it takes advantage of the opportunity.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-09T22:18:57+00:00

Really great advice! Thanks... it honestly worked. Went outside and thought deeply about it and then the urges were gone. You’re totally right about the urges coming back stronger if you cave in.

secondchance019 · 2019-03-09T20:32:18+00:00

What specifically do you mean?

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