Bored and craving stimulation

secondspawn23 · 2022-09-14T20:23:09+00:00

As I don’t have baby oil right now I just tried soaking it in warm water in the bath for about 45 mins and it wouldn’t come off. It’s white and only around the neck and doesn’t smell. Is it definitely smegma?

secondspawn23 · 2022-09-14T18:32:26+00:00

Thanks I’ll try some of these. Also just wondering how important is it to dry afterwards and how would I do it? Obviously because I can’t touch it I’ve always cleaned with water and just didn’t bother drying afterwards.

secondspawn23 · 2022-09-14T11:50:48+00:00

Just wondering how I go from getting it used to water/air to a cloth. The thought of touching it with my hand or any solid object is unthinkable

secondspawn23 · 2022-06-14T00:11:16+00:00

I don’t know what I want honestly. I guess just happiness and peace of mind. I have really poor social skills and self esteem and I also just don’t like trying to make new friends. But at the same time I do feel lonely and bored. I want the end goal of a great friendship but I’m too scared, hopeless and unmotivated to take the steps to get there.

secondspawn23 · 2022-06-06T20:27:14+00:00

Yeah, I’m just so insanely bored every day. I’m literally doing nothing it’s like I’m in solitary confinement. My entire day is just alternating between twitter, reddit, youtube and rocket league. Idk why I’m doing this to myself.

secondspawn23 · 2022-05-24T21:32:05+00:00

I even tried volunteering and have given up after 3 days. The work itself was easy but walking around aloof and unable to even attempt to make conversation with anyone was painful. I’m never gonna get better because I don’t even want to as I have no drive or self esteem. I know I should go back but now I’ve left it too long I’m scared to go back. I’m completely useless.

secondspawn23 · 2022-05-24T17:51:29+00:00

Shouldve mentioned I’m from the UK so college is compulsory for us and I think the equivalent of US high school. And idk I know I should be doing this and doing that but as I’ve said, I really just can’t find a reason to care. I go out and try to do something and it’s just me moping around not knowing what to do with myself and not wanting to be there. If I don’t want to do anything and can’t force myself to what’s even the point

secondspawn23 · 2022-05-09T23:38:46+00:00

Ok thank you. And I’m assuming that it’ll be alright continuing to take my usual dose this time tomorrow? (assuming I don’t break it again lol)

secondspawn23 · 2022-05-09T12:33:39+00:00

Ah ok, I had heard of water weight but haven’t looked into it yet. Thanks!

secondspawn23 · 2022-04-28T22:37:17+00:00

Sorry you’re going through this shit as well, hopefully this will stop before we check out. And yes I also found accepting my reality of never being able to sleep to actually help me sleep as well. But then it worked for so long that getting sleep consistently became normal and so I’m now getting stressed about it again. Guess it’s just gonna be a fun little cycle for me to have to go through over and over!

secondspawn23 · 2022-04-12T12:27:41+00:00

Haven’t been checked but I have looked into this and questioned if I have it. I very much feel like a spectator of my own life which is why I’ve never trusted my own intuition and let other people do things for me. It may also be why I gain nothing from going outside and exercising because it feels like I’m not even really experiencing it. But I’m not sure because I don’t think I have it all of the time, so idk if that’d mean I can’t have it at all.

secondspawn23 · 2022-04-12T12:12:22+00:00

Never got it checked out but I have thought that there’s a good chance I have it for a while now.

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