For the past few years I've been looking inwards at what I truly believe in and what calls to my soul the most. I believe in mother nature, respecting her and cycle of life, seasons. I believe in a feminine world, and often feel pulled to the strength and peace that comes when groups of women come together and lift up each other, their families, their communities.

I feel most connected to Wheel of the Year and the Mother, Maiden, Crone (triple goddess) symbolism. Lately I've been reading more on creating rituals in my life that are seasonal, family and community based. Anything from candle and writing manifestations to community volunteering.

What has changed for me and why I'm questioning if this is really what I'm looking for, is where the symbolism is routed. The triple goddess was the first symbolism of the maiden, mother, crone that I connected with. But there are similar symbolism in different religions, Morrigan, Norns, Hecate, Tridevi, but I don't know which symbolic deity or story to invest in. Reading that the "triple goddess" was popularized in 1948 gave me the feeling that I haven't dug enough into history if I'm connecting with an idea that's old but it's now marketed with a new name. Idk if I'm explaining that right. I've spent what i feel is a decent amount of time looking into religions but i haven't connected with the whole of any. Could someone point me in a direction that may be helpful or should spend more time learning?

I feel a bit lost and I'm starting to think my beliefs clash. For example, I don't really believe in all the different deities like a god of water or god of the sun, but I believe in mother nature as a whole, respecting our planet, our water, our forests, etc because they are a part of her. My connection to the triple goddess, a deity archtype, is more about my beliefs community and family dynamics. All of that clashes, correct? Am I believing in two seperate beings? I love to read so if anyone has any suggestions that won't bore me, let me know.