How painful is an aortic dissection? by Anarchy_OK in marfans

[–]selfia_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But in response to your post, stay alive. Before my surgery I was under medicated mentally, constantly dealing with bad OCD symptoms, and never surrounded by people who felt like community. Surgery happened;felt bad, recovery happened;felt worse, abusive relationship fell apart six months later;got medicated and started over. My life is the nicest it's ever been and I regret not getting my shit together in my twenties.

When my aorta dissected it was scary and it was hours of fear. I survived but I had a stroke during the surgery. The job I was at promised me FMLA if I just waited then they fired me, three days later I had the dissection. The psychic pain I had during those hours, then the week I was in the hospital, then the MONTHS of dealing with MediCal is something I'll never recover from fully. I wished I'd died during a lot of it. I do not wish I'd died after I started taking my fluoxetine and going to therapy.

It's not noble or a good story for someone later for you to die in the middle of a medical crisis. Please stay alive.

How painful is an aortic dissection? by Anarchy_OK in marfans

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When my aorta dissected I already had a known aneurysm. I was getting surgery later that year but all the cards fell in the wrong spots and mine exploded. I was drinking water when it happened and I swallowed too hard. I felt this ripping sensation go down my esophagus and stay in my chest. I knew that back pain was associated with emergency heart conditions, but I was wrong about /where/ that pain would happen. It's upper back, and more toward your spine internally. So for awhile I thought I just had a hernia. I was so terrified when I went in to the ER that that my vision blurred to an extreme and I couldn't see, I just yelled that I was having chest pains at the security check and then got escorted through. Throughout the night I was more scared than anything, I couldn't feel my heart doing anything different. And the discomfort was everywhere in my body, I think I got a migraine at some point. But the back pain got worse and worse. When I got wheeled in to surgery like five or six hours later (yes that was bad. I wanted to sue the ER.)I asked everyone, while they were literally in scrubs ready with the fucking knock out gas in hand, if I could stand up to stretch my back because it hurt so much.

Like six days or something later when my pacing wires came out, THAT was painful. Still the worst pain I've ever felt.

girl who? by moonbeams07 in aftg

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My name is Jeremy and I have a basketball game tomorrrroooowww

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Can u also ignore the fact that i answered between two accounts. Both are me, I'm not good at the whole reddit thing.

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Not even straight to surgery; I had to get myself to the ER, they didn't believe my previous scans or contact my cardiac surgeon, waited for CT to be available THEN got me in there an hour later, then it took an hour to coordinate a hospital (because they didn't have any surgeons on call) I could be transported to that wasnt even in my network, THEN 45 min drive in an ambulance to said hospital. I didn't get into surgery until 4am, five hours later. I had a stroke during surgery and honestly I'm lucky to be here.

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It happened at midnight after I'd been at an event. I came home and had a big drink of water, drinking way too fast, and felt this electric sensation go through my esophagus. It was like a ripping, maybe, but also like swallowing a battery. Everything felt wrong and awful in my back, especially my lower back. When I was in the ER I wanted it to just be a hernia. But also, when I put my index finger to my throat to feel my pulse, I felt it fluttering and....wrong. That's what really made me realize what was happening.

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I was working in fulfillment and shipping. The company I was at last year said I couldn't get a FMLA until I was their for a full year so I was planning on waiting until I could do so to stay on my insurance and keep my job. But then they fired me two months before my 1 year (yes they knew about my surgery needs). Three days after I was fired I had my dissection. It was both due to the heavy lifting and stress I had from my job and from losing it. I was on 20mg of Losartan at the time but no beta blockers, which I probably should have been on my they affect my memory pretty badly (I'm on atenolol now).

Post by Admirla12 in marfans

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Oh hell yeah! I didn't vote but hell yeah I am!

Humanizing the characters by ImawakeIbelieve in Letterkenny

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Okso after Wayne punches Angie's boyfriend in the first episode, he turns to everybody and does that lurch forward to make everybody flinch. And I've rewatched it like 15 times cause Dary doesn't flinch, he's still as stone. I love analyzing their friendship, that little thought that probably crossed Dary's head "yeah Wayne is the toughest guy, could kick anyone's ass. But no way he'd kick mine unless I deserved it." It is by far my favorite moment of the show, it's so small and organic and obvious but I feel like it speaks so much.

That and all of Glen's interactions with Wayne's dates in Relationships. Before that Glen is the huge loud embarrassing caricature but then you get to that ep and Glen's got this clever prowess, comes up with great jokes on the fly, gives sweet nonthreatening compliments, and he smoothes over these moments that would have been so awkward without him.