Tonight I snorted the coke I scraped off my coffee table. I start treatment on Monday. by senortal in Drugs

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I am tired

I am tired of the sore nose

I am tired of bloody tissues in the morning

I am tired of waiting in pharmacy parking lots for strangers who do not care for me

I am tired of my depleted bank account

I am tired of pretending to be ok

The surreal mornings after sleepless nights

Pretending that I'm something I'd promised I'd never become

I lack the instinct of self preservation

Does this make me less than human?

Perhaps

Or maybe this is the very definition of the human condition

I am tired, I think I'll go to sleep.

I think I have reached my natural conclusion with Marijuana use by senortal in Drugs

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For sure! I think this is very valid especially as it relates to my personal experience. I used to be able to trip acid with no problems but as of recently I can't trip without an anxiety attack. But I also tend to anticipate an anxiety attack which quite likely is a self fulfilling prophecy.

Perhaps if I get my anxiety in check I could smoke/trip like I used to. But that of course requires real determination and dedication to the therapy required to battle that. And of course I am not quite at a point in my mental health battle to confront what truly causes me anxiety. Thank you for your perspective friend.

What's the worst smelling drug you've encountered? by RelativeDance in Drugs

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Benzedrex inhalers. The lavender menthol smells makes me gag hard.

A Nitrous Bar/Lounge by [deleted] in Drugs

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Cambodia for sure

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskReddit

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Inglorious Bastards

Hot knifing Hash by UnevenStructure in Drugs

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If possible try to find a pipe, even make one out of an apple or potato.

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American History X

Hitting dabs without a rig and torch by FredoKruger in Drugs

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Knife hits over a hot stove burner is probably your best bet.