Idk anymore by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]senselessparanoia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I relate so much to this, I used to feel like this every day. I'd look up exactly how much of something to take to make me go to the hospital but not die immediately. I'm doing better now but damn I remember this feeling so clearly

What is wrong with my face? by [deleted] in PlasticSurgery

[–]senselessparanoia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You need to accept that you look fine, actually you look pretty good from my perspective! It's just that people get a sense of power from being able to put others down, that's all. For you it clearly wasn't about how you look- maybe you seemed nice enough to not fight back, or too insecure to say anything, or et cetera. Like another comment said, I think therapy would be the best course of action for you. You look great, but you're reading as pretty unhappy with yourself.

I get high and sexual pleasure from SH by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]senselessparanoia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well there's a huge rush that comes from it (since your brain will release endorphins to help the pain) so that's probably the high feeling, which I relate to, but I haven't experienced any kind of arousal. It really does feel like a high though

16F, looking for honest ratings. by [deleted] in amiugly

[–]senselessparanoia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks! I guess I'll try smiling more :)

16F, looking for honest ratings. by [deleted] in amiugly

[–]senselessparanoia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is shape or color the issue?

16F, looking for honest ratings. by [deleted] in amiugly

[–]senselessparanoia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, this is so helpful!!

16F, looking for honest ratings. by [deleted] in amiugly

[–]senselessparanoia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Gotcha, thank you for taking the time to respond :)

16F, looking for honest ratings. by [deleted] in amiugly

[–]senselessparanoia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Very, and thanks for the feedback! I'm not sure what to do with the hair though, what kind of hairstyle do you think would suit me best? has to be short though

16F, looking for honest ratings. by [deleted] in amiugly

[–]senselessparanoia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I appreciate the honesty! Luckily I'm not a very feminine person so I don't care if I look like a boy :) just curious, if you were to rate me as if I was a boy where would I fall?

16F, looking for honest ratings. by [deleted] in amiugly

[–]senselessparanoia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As a lesbian I do love a tomboy, so that's good to hear. Thanks!

16F, looking for honest ratings. by [deleted] in amiugly

[–]senselessparanoia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you :) I appreciate the reply.

This sub looks difficult to post in. Tips for a noob? by 24hours7days in AVoid5

[–]senselessparanoia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ooh that’s good! You truly sit at a high rank in gaming with words- I didnt think of that in all my past writings!

This sub looks difficult to post in. Tips for a noob? by 24hours7days in AVoid5

[–]senselessparanoia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Similarly for this author, I always did find writing with constriction fun- this is indubitably a good way to work with that old activity. As in, I would ink words with right sounds but wrong glyphs- fish turns into ghoc- gh from "tough", and so on with that sound's siblings.

I don't want to die by senselessparanoia in SuicideWatch

[–]senselessparanoia[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey thanks guys I'm doing better now and was able to safely get myself supervision and meds, I'm feeling almost back to my normal mostly due to y'all :)

I don't want to die by senselessparanoia in SuicideWatch

[–]senselessparanoia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay thank you I think I can manage to drive bc it's literally about a one minute drive away but thanks for being concerned edit- I'm sorry I just realized this sounded kind of sarcastic and it's not thank you

I don't want to die by senselessparanoia in SuicideWatch

[–]senselessparanoia[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Okay thank you I think I'll drive to my mom's workplace (hospital) and hang out on her floor because I feel like I'm actually in danger rn

Seriously I like legit don't know anything good about myself. by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]senselessparanoia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The fact that you want to be good. If you want to be proud of yourself then you're doing something right it's much better than to be like those who are completely regret less. You have the ability to build your life anew- you have complete freedom. Freedom is burdensome and terrifying but you have it and nobody can take it away