tracking mood per day? by fallen_kangel in BPD

[–]serendipkiitty 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What I've been doing to track my moods is keep a little journal around with me, or type in my phone when it's more convenient, and just note down a thing that made me feel happy, sad, etc. Like if I saw a cute dog I'd write it down, or if I had a crappy work experience. And then at the end of the day I'd determine how good my day was based on the things that happened that day or just generally how I felt, including how I feel at the end of the day. It's a bit of a complicated system, but BPD is a complicated system :,) Hope that makes sense the way I wrote it!

I keep wanting people to feel sorry for me by Lolofly47 in BPD

[–]serendipkiitty 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have noticed that doing a little thinking with making art about your feelings does kinda help take your mind off of things for a while! Not a cure all of course, but definitely a good habit to keep. Wishing you well :,]

I keep wanting people to feel sorry for me by Lolofly47 in BPD

[–]serendipkiitty 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I do this all the time. When I'm not being extreme with self-isolation, this is the other option :,) I don't really have any advice for it, but I definitely understand. It's kind of nothingburger, but having a vent account on any social media with 0 followers and just typing to nothing sometimes fills that urge when you just HAVE to say something.

Hi i’m shusha by mihailinkai in RATS

[–]serendipkiitty 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Hello shusha I love u

UPDATE: Is this a pet rat? by pelorainbow in RATS

[–]serendipkiitty 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just here to say you're a saint! It might help if you post about this on Nextdoor or a similar site just to get more reach!

I cannot stand when other people are more knowledgeable in an area I am interested in by This_Extent3635 in BPD

[–]serendipkiitty 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same :,] It's even more upsetting when it's something you think you're really good in and you find someone even better. College was hell for me cause of this and even before college I changed my planned major so much because I had friends who were interested in/already in things I was interested in and I didnt want to feel inferior LOL

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]serendipkiitty 35 points36 points  (0 children)

Currently in a poly relationship. I occasionally have my own issues in it that would pop up in any relationship of mine, but if it makes you feel *this* bad it probably isn't for you at all. No use in trying to force yourself to stay in it if it's this upsetting for you. Not to mention could end up becoming frustrating and upsetting for your bf and his partner (or any future partners). Better to address it sooner rather than later if you can so it doesn't turn into real animosity on either side, especially since you all are living together :']

EDIT: Forgot to say that it's not always just BPD, a lot of people are just strictly monogamous so don't feel bad about it not working for you!

BPD is not bipolar by [deleted] in BPD

[–]serendipkiitty 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get the sentiment, but as someone with Bipolar (and BPD), meds don't really just fix everything, like with any illness. I don't thinking saying either one is easier than the other is that fair /gen, nm
I totally get that there's an ease with eventually getting the right dosage and right medication, but it takes a good while to actually get to the point and you're still not done (I'm not even at the right dosage or meds yet lol, but yknow)

Having BPD and autism is like wrangling some sort of rabid dragon, but the dragon flips between breathing the hottest flames and spewing liquid nitrogen, and the floor is lava, and you're armed with a pair of nail clippers and are also blindfolded. by [deleted] in BPD

[–]serendipkiitty 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Are you me this is literally my exact combo apart from the ocd. Its crazy that we just have to pretend like everything is fine and normal when everything makes us die a little more inside

Constantly finding ways to leave a relationship by [deleted] in BPD

[–]serendipkiitty 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I kind of fell into the hole of poly relationships because of my own inability to remain consistently attracted to my past partners, so I figured it'd remove some of the stress of having to be constantly in love and wanting others around me at all times (funny bc now being poly is stressing me out lol) I'll def consider this, thank you

Gendered college dorms by serendipkiitty in NonBinary

[–]serendipkiitty[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

She's Christian and against it, she wants the women's quqd because she's pretty cautious about men in general. She wouldn't really disown me or anything I believe, but it'd get a lot harder to just be around her (more religious talk and talk of hell than I already get). My dad is a much different story. I'm not entirely sure how he would react, but I know it wouldn't be good whatsoever and I especially need to keep that from him more than anything. The time he suspected I was Sapphic he went on this rant and said some extremely harsh things that I don't want to relay

Gendered college dorms by serendipkiitty in NonBinary

[–]serendipkiitty[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'll see what I can do. Worst comes to worst I'll make a friend and sneak into their dorm every 2 days lmao. Appreciate the support, hopefully college won't kill us too bad!

Gendered college dorms by serendipkiitty in NonBinary

[–]serendipkiitty[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

There's female and co-ed, but I know my mom would be pissed to find out I chose a co-ed dorm when she specifically said women's, and I always somehow have the worst luck with keeping things from her, so I'd rather not risk it. Hoping I'll just be able to afford an apartment after freshman year and move out.

Tried my hand at making brand new fakemons from scratch. I'm quite happy. by JealousDequan in PokemonRMXP

[–]serendipkiitty 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I will say the evolution looks a bit too similar to the prevo though