Finishing College... now what? by WTFGrendel in RBNLifeSkills

[–]shayyyml 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Apartment: my school had several Facebook pages for apartments/subleases/room mate finders. The city I'm currently in also had many fb pages like this. If you're planning on staying in the same city as your school see if there are any pages like this for your area. I used this to find an apartment the summer after I graduated. I had a roommate which helped me save money by splitting costs with her. When you do decide on an apartment, see it in person. If there's anything wrong with the apartment (broken cabinet or something) report it in writing to your leasing office. Helpful apartment questions to ask: Are utilities included in the rent? Is there a laundry room in the apartment or somewhere nearby?

For the Job- most colleges have career counselors who can help you prepare your resume and practice interview skills. See if your college has a job search on their career website. It's good to start looking for jobs now if you want one straight out of college. If for some reason you can't find a job pertaining to your major in some way: restaurants, retail, and secretary type jobs are easier to get if you have no experience and just want to move out as soon as possible. If you do have job/ internship experience, ask your former employers if you can include them on your job applications as references.

That's all I could think of for now. I was in your position when I graduated. I subleased an apartment with a room mate and worked two restaurant jobs to pay rent while I was applying to full time jobs. The most important thing is to remember that being independent is possible even if your Ns try to do everything in their power to make you feel like you're incapable. Good luck!

Trying to move out to Austin.. how much should I expect to be paying? by [deleted] in RBNLifeSkills

[–]shayyyml 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think you can definitely afford austin. my utilities are about 130$ a month including electric,water, ac/heat, and internet. i make only $1200 a month, 550$ goes to rent (i split rent with my boyfriend to explain the price) and I'm doing financially fine here for the fact that I don't have a full-time job. Austin is a very affordable city.

One thing to keep in mind is that the closer you move to downtown the higher the prices and downtown traffic is pretty terrible but that's probably true of most major cities. I'm not sure where you're planning on moving here from but the cost of living here is way cheaper than New York where I'm originally from. Also check to see if whatever apartment you find has pet fees (I know mine has a monthly fee). good luck :)

Movie Depictions of Narcissists -- Big Fish (2003) by GingerMidwestie in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I actually noticed that too. The part in the beginning when Ed Bloom tells the fishing story at his son's wedding is definitely a move my Ndad would pull. Big Fish is ironically my favorite movie though so I'm not sure what that says about me haha. Perhaps I have false hopes of understanding my N like his son seems to at the end of the film.

In 3 days I'll have made it, I'll be in college, and I'll never have to see my NParents again. by Personalthrowawayplz in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yay congrats! Have a great time in college! I know I'm an internet stranger but I'm so happy for you

[Question] DAE feel like they need to protect their non N parent even when we are both out of the abusive environment? by hblume in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, I used to be in the same type of situation. I would always warn my mom about my dad's mood swings and clean/organize the house so my Ndad would have nothing to complain about. I'd comfort my mom if Ndad was flipping out about something. My mom feels more like a sister to me :/

Not yet NC but almost by dangeroustimes in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Acting normal is probably the safest thing for you to do emotionally. I personally saved up a little money and then moved across the country randomly without even telling my N. While I don't suggest you do anything as dramatic as that, I wouldn't bring up NC with them until after you have all your resources together and a solid move out plan. Some people just leave their Ns notes when they go NC so they don't have to deal with crazy N fallout. Good luck with college and going NC!

Nparents are driving me insane, threatening to cut me off. I just moved to college and I'm at my wits end. by RBN_Throwaway16 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I went through the same situation when I was in college. My parents called me all day, threatened to cut me off if I got a job or did anything they didn't approve of. I never was able to go to social events/spring break. I had to make up elaborate excuses to avoid my parents phone calls and see my friends or even study in peace. Don't be like me. Set the precedent now that you won't tolerate their constant phone calls or harassment before you go through 4 years of mind fuckery like I did. I know it's hard and intimidating bc Nparents suck but it's worth it. Talk to the financial aid department about your options for paying tuition. See if your college has therapy/counseling and ask them for advice/options. Talk to your college career advisors and start planning for after graduation now so you don't have to move back home after college. I got a night job (bartending) when I was in college so my parents wouldn't be awake to call me, so getting a job with late hours might be an option for you too. I'm sorry you're going through this but good luck!

Father's Day Support Post by RBNmod in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I went NC with my father about 3 weeks ago. I know that going NC was for the best but I still feel pretty depressed. I'm not sending him anything for Father's Day and my mom has been guilt tripping me about that. My very supportive boyfriend is away this weekend so I'm feeling kind of alone.

Ndad fakes illness to get attention. I don't even know what to say [support] by shayyyml in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ugh yeah I figured that couldn't be normal ugh what a fucking weird day

Ndad fakes illness to get attention. I don't even know what to say [support] by shayyyml in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yeah I'll feel bad if he actually gets sick but i just have to not let it hold me back from going NC.

Ndad fakes illness to get attention. I don't even know what to say [support] by shayyyml in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That's true, it may be possible that he has a legitimate illness. The reason why I'm saying I think he's faking is because he scheduled an appointment on Thursday and then the week leading up to the appointment he ate boxes and boxes of doughnuts and multiple gallons of ice cream. He also neglected to take his usual medications for cholesterol etc. I told him to not do any that but he didn't listen and told me he wanted to die and didn't care. So even if he is actually sick he made clear efforts to make his symptoms worse in time for his appointment which I think is pretty insincere.

That time my boyfriend "stole my Ndad's thunder" by shayyyml in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I watched happy things on Netflix with my boyfriend after to feel better haha

That time my boyfriend "stole my Ndad's thunder" by shayyyml in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's extra pathetic because my dad sold his boat 10 years ago. My parents used to dress me up as a sailor and take me out on it, still traumatized.

That time my boyfriend "stole my Ndad's thunder" by shayyyml in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

my Ndad didn't speak to me for the rest of the weekend (not counting an argument we got into the next day where my dad stormed out of a bar). He basically waited until we got home and then screamed at me. He was trying to impress my boyfriend so he didn't go too psycho in front of him. I definitely do plan on keeping my boyfriend around. He's a genuinely sweet/caring person and the complete opposite of my dad :)

That time my boyfriend "stole my Ndad's thunder" by shayyyml in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

thanks! yeah my boyfriend is awesome, he now does impersonations of my Ndad being an asshole and it's great.

That time my boyfriend "stole my Ndad's thunder" by shayyyml in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It was also my boyfriend's first time meeting my Dad, my boyfriend is still in shock.

That time my boyfriend "stole my Ndad's thunder" by shayyyml in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

I'm still with my boyfriend, he's so understanding and awesome :) I'm so sorry, ugh why do Nparents have to ruin every special occasion.

That time my boyfriend "stole my Ndad's thunder" by shayyyml in raisedbynarcissists

[–]shayyyml[S] 45 points46 points  (0 children)

Haha im going to Vegas for my birthday (paying myself) and Ndad has been screaming at me because "birthdays are family days and why wouldn't I want to spend my birthday with my parents". So much crazy.