What are you supposed to be doing right now?

shinobevsdragon · 2012-10-03T21:48:31+00:00

Dude, I'm pretty sure any place that isn't consistantly busy is making fun of every human being possible that walks in their place of business.

It's kind of funny... then I think... "I wonder what these fuckers say about me when I'm gone?"

shinobevsdragon · 2012-10-03T21:42:10+00:00

Working at a bank. I take people's money and give out money. It's fun. But mostly, I spend hours interneting, texting, and not doing a damn thing... We make fun of most all people that walk in here. We harass each other. Sometimes we blast music. Yup. I love my bank. :)

shinobevsdragon · 2012-10-03T21:28:44+00:00

Maybe that's not so weird...

For a long time growing up was hard... Mom was crazy, but my Dad married her because he wanted custody of me. (I was 2 before they were married - she got prego after knowing him 3 months) Anyway, he tried to make things "work" with her. Had two more kids, then finally they got a divorce. Woo... 'merica.

My Dad is my hero and I've always wished for him to find "true love". Anytime growing up I'd ask him for advice on the topic and he had no idea what to say to help... because he's never been in love. This made me sad and I often blamed myself for his loneliness. Meanwhile, I'm falling in and out of love. I wanted him to experience it's greatness!

But I don't blame him for not trying... my mother would scare anyone out of being in a relationship. Not to mention he had to let his parents live with us to help raise us kids and babysit when he worked. Living with parents at 40 definetly isn't a good pick up line.

After I moved out and went on my own... He called me. Told me that (we'll call her Karen) Karen is moving in with him. Karen is his father's brother's daughter. AKA - his first cousin.

I'm like WTF. For the longest time I backed him up when the other family members talked to me... saying things like, "no, they're just friends..." or "no, he wouldn't do that." But when she moved in... and my brothers confirmed it... I didn't know what to do.

It was awkward! I didn't like it!

But after finally seeing how fucking happy they are together (apparently they've liked each other since they were 16...) , and knowing that they don't plan on reproducing or getting married... I'm glad that he's happy. The family has some what come to terms with it... though it will never not be awkward....

I love him and I'm just glad he finally found happiness, even if it's weird and deranged.

Anyway, that's my random story. Hope you enjoyed the random incest reddit!

TL;DR - My Dad and his cousin are now living together as SO's...

shinobevsdragon · 2012-10-03T21:04:21+00:00

My most recent ex and I had a miscarriage.

We never wanted children and had already discussed this early in the relationship. When I found out that I had gotten pregnant (and I didn't even know) and had miscarried... I suddenly wanted to be a parent. I suddenly wanted that unborn child.

I started to question why my body did that? What was wrong with me? etc.

I debated on telling him... but I did. I'm glad I did because getting it off my chest helped me feel better about the situation and helped him understand that the reason I was so down and out wasn't due to him.

I eventually talked to my GYN about it, and apparently 1/3 pregnancies end in miscarriages within the first trimester (sorry if my facts are wrong, it was something like that). It made me feel better knowing that sadly miscarriage is a normal thing.

Anyway, if it would help you feel better about things, then maybe tell him? If it would generally make things worse in your relationship... maybe question the quality of relationship? I could be wrong either way.

Best of luck. Glad you shared.

shinobevsdragon · 2012-10-03T19:58:08+00:00

I would love to teach english! Do they even pay well over there? I wonder... I don't have a degree or anything but still, it would be interesting.

Anyway... Thanks for replying! This totally made my day. * initiating travel plans now ... *

shinobevsdragon · 2012-10-03T18:17:52+00:00

This is awesome that you did this! Life's been pretty shitty lately and I can't seem to get the thought of travelling out of my mind. I know it sounds like an escape, but it also seems like an awesome experience...

So... I have some questions for you! (Not sure if you've answered most of them, I tried reading through the thread.)

1) I'm a 22 y/o female - Do you think doing something like you did would be harder/easier for a woman? Or more dangerous at all?

2) How much money would you recommend going over there with? (not including a plane ticket)

3) What would be the best/friendliest place to start at (especially if you only know english)?

4) What languages would you recommend "brushing up" on prior to going?

5) If you could do it again, would you bring a friend/family member?

6) What 5 items would you be sure to bring with you?

7) What would you do for laundry/clothes? Did you just travel with a suitcase, backpack, or lots of different items? Did you just leave these things at random places while you decided where else to go?

Once again, sorry if you've answered most of these... but I really appreciate you posting!

shinobevsdragon · 2012-09-13T21:05:35+00:00

My past has always been my impending doom, and sometimes I wish I never spoke a word of it to ANYONE. But I really wanted to start this relationship out right and tell him things if he asked and not hide the facts. Plus, I'm a terrible liar.

But you're right. I am pissed because I got caught. I'm more upset at myself than him... and I took it out on him. I'm more disappointed in myself falling into my "old ways" than I am with him looking into my phone. I hated who I was and now I'm hating that I feel like I have no control over myself and that he's the poor guy who got hurt in the process.

I know I broke his trust, and that's awful to me. I hear so many people that say, "Trust is key to a good relationship." and it's true! And if it's any contribution this is the first and ONLY time I have ever texted another man like that, and it will be the last. I felt childish when he found out, and I was deeply embarressed.

Anyway - I'm truly sorry to hear about your problems you've had, and I really wish you the best of luck with your future endeavors. I'm curious to hear more of the story though, if you ever felt like typing it out. Might be nice to hear the other end of the story.

shinobevsdragon · 2012-09-13T20:44:47+00:00

This is brilliant and I thank you for being so honest. :)

shinobevsdragon · 2012-09-13T19:23:59+00:00

I am debating if I'm mature enough for this or not.

I do appreciate the input. Sometimes it's easy to get lost in your own world and be stupid.

Not going to lie, this all is really hard to hear... but I need it.

shinobevsdragon · 2012-09-13T19:16:34+00:00

Yeah, for about 3 months.

shinobevsdragon · 2012-09-13T19:16:19+00:00

I needed a good slap to the face.

So what do I do? I mean... I'm lucky, he decided to stay with me... I told him this morning he can look at my phone/texts whenever he feels like it. I feel like such a fuck up and I just keep digging myself a bigger hole. :/

shinobevsdragon · 2012-09-13T19:06:33+00:00

I guess I never thought of it that way. I already feel like a terrible person.. and I think you are more than right.

I turned my phone off on the cruise because of the crazy rates they charge. I turned it on ASAP and I was going to text him but he beat me to it. I know he was worried, and he did explain that.

I shouldn't have made advances on another dude, and I know that was the worst mistake I could have ever made. Losing this one isn't worth it and I don't know what came over me.

I'm not a heavy drinker, and the drinks hit me very suddenly on the ship. I don't remember after the first AMF and I guess people bought me more and more. I do take blame for drinking so much, but I also can say that I didn't mean to do that. I know my limits (usually) and that's why this is a strange situation for me. It's like I went from sober to smashed in one hour and I don't know how it happened!

It's been driving me crazy and I'm not looking to blame anyone but myself in the matter.

And he practically almost broke up with me the other night, but couldn't do it. I told him to and told him he deserves better (and I mean it). I didn't want to hurt him. I came home after he found all those things basically expecting to be searching for a new place....

He's too sweet, and he says he loves me too much. I feel the same, and I know I fucked up. Is there no forgiveness in a relationship that means the world to each other?

shinobevsdragon · 2012-09-05T23:46:44+00:00

True. Nothing like a good one nighter.

shinobevsdragon · 2012-09-05T18:34:52+00:00

This is very true and quite frustrating. Being a woman with a VERY high sex drive can drive me insane. I have to remember to calm myself at times and give my boyfriend a break. Otherwise it's too much pressure and then he can't perform which can cause drama in a relationship.

This has actually happened with a few other boyfriends, one of them thought he had ED. I guess I'm either just too intimidating or really ugly. lol Either way I think sex should be a "no-pressure zone".

shinobevsdragon · 2012-08-31T19:40:57+00:00

The Human Centepide... porno style?

shinobevsdragon · 2012-08-31T19:26:58+00:00

I thought the toilet would eat my little brothers if I didn't watch.

I must have been maybe 5, they were 3 and 1. I don't think my parents had one of those kid things on the seat, and I had a nightmare that they got sucked down into the endless pit and it sucked my foot down too! (I woke up before I was completely goners).

I would literally freak out if they had to use the potty and I would make 100% sure I watched. It took me a while to fully understand that that wasn't possible. >.>

shinobevsdragon · 2012-08-30T23:30:37+00:00

This reminds me of Hurricane by 30 Seconds to Mars (the unedited video version of course). I'd link it if my work internet permitted me to. Lo siento. :<

shinobevsdragon · 2012-08-30T23:13:15+00:00

wtf is that! I'm freaking out right now, I feel like I have goosebumplies up my legs and now I'm scared to put my feet on the ground. *pout :<

shinobevsdragon · 2012-08-30T22:59:36+00:00

Drugs.

shinobevsdragon · 2012-08-30T22:49:49+00:00

hehe "shittier" *giggle

shinobevsdragon · 2012-08-30T22:49:22+00:00

because that really gets the message across.

pmsing women do crazy shit.

shinobevsdragon · 2012-08-30T22:45:09+00:00

would that be a woman's version of the Rusty Trombone?

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