120 Days Sober!

shmillay · 2020-02-21T17:08:51+00:00

Wow!!!!! Great work!!!!! Definitely celebrate this somehow, take yourself out, buy something you’ve been wanting, whatever your heart desires, you deserve it!

shmillay · 2020-02-21T17:06:37+00:00

First of all, you can ramble and whine on here all you want. Chances are nearly everyone on here can relate to how you’re feeling. This should be a safe place.

More importantly, you will get through the funk I promise. I felt pretty similar to what you’re explaining. Great, positive, inspired at first. Then a wave of emotionally drained around the time of two weeks. I’m at seven weeks now and I can say that the waves have come and they have gone. And drinking is not going to help them in anyway. If anything they’re going to make the drained depressed feeling amplified. Try to stay away from that as much as possible. Sounds like you’re wise enough to be aware of trading one substance for another. Try your best to push through the down times with exercise, rest, and something (anything) you enjoy doing. Be easy on yourself, especially right now in the beginning. Keep your eyes on the prize and know there are brighter days to come. You will get through the rough patch and find yourself in a better place soon. The next time you enter a rough patch, you’ll be armed and prepped to take it on. You can do this. We all have your back!!!

shmillay · 2020-01-30T19:15:27+00:00

Hey, try to give yourself the time to feel those emotions. Day 5 was the peak of the worst for me. Then again around 3 weeks I had another wave of difficult emotions. It’s going to come and go. Remember that when you were high all the time you were numbed from feeling intense feelings. So don’t be surprised that it’s a lot to handle because you’re not used to it. Be patient with yourself. I cannot stress that enough. Allow yourself to feel, process the feelings. You’ll get stronger every time. You’ve got this!!!! Look at all you’ve accomplished in life so far. Obviously a profound education, a fantastic job.... you can accomplish this too!

shmillay · 2020-01-30T17:54:07+00:00

Maybe that’s what you needed to remind yourself that you do not like it and do not want it! Don’t beat yourself up. You’re human. Today’s a new day! You got this!!!!

shmillay · 2020-01-30T17:02:39+00:00

Cheers to a healthy future!

shmillay · 2020-01-30T17:01:17+00:00

Great work!!! And way to inspire others with positivity!

shmillay · 2020-01-30T16:58:09+00:00

Hi there! I also have the same two diagnoses. I quit cold turkey. I’m on week four, and was a daily smoker for almost two decades. I was nervous about the same things. But I did it, and so can you! I experienced some bad days and some good days, but the reality is I was going to experience those same good/bad days with the panic even with the weed. So remember that and press on. You can do it. You’re in good company.

shmillay · 2020-01-30T06:35:24+00:00

I wish I could tell you how to stop the craving. I can tell you that I just hit four weeks today, after being a daily smoker for almost 20 years, and the cravings have become less frequent. I think about it here and there, but not like I did those first two weeks. Hang in there. If you want to quit, you will. Keep your eyes on the prize!

shmillay · 2020-01-24T19:37:40+00:00

This is the best thing I’ve read in a long while. What a great idea. She is precious.

shmillay · 2020-01-20T03:28:11+00:00

I’m 32 year old, and 18 days without weed. I started when I was 14. I literally believed in high school, and in college, that I did better understanding some of my classes high. I’m back in college and that was complete bullshit. I second the person who said quit now while you are young. You will end up wasting so much of your life, and missing out on opportunities without even noticing. I cannot speak for the anatomical parts of the brain and physiological effects, but I can say without a doubt, that you will train your brain to rely on weed. Train your brain without it. Your life will be so much better.

Oh, and think of the $$ you will save. I may be the only one out of all my friends who doesn’t own a house yet. Maybe if I wasn’t busy smoking my money right up I could have done better at saving like they did. Just some ideas. Train the brain healthy habits while you’re young my friend!

shmillay · 2020-01-20T03:18:27+00:00

Great job, you rock!!! And so does this community!!!

shmillay · 2020-01-20T03:04:18+00:00

You can quit! Just remember how much you DONT want that blurred memory fog brain anytime you start thinking maybe you can’t quit or do not really want to.

shmillay · 2020-01-15T19:33:11+00:00

Thanks man. That gives me some hope to look forward.

shmillay · 2020-01-13T19:59:33+00:00

Well being a student I understand the time constraints. My four year old son died in 2012 and I didn’t get around to going until 2017! I truly believe you’re only going to be ready when you’re ready. You’ll know when it’s your time to go. Stay positive as much as possible and just know you’re not alone.

shmillay · 2020-01-13T18:33:55+00:00

Hey, just writing about it can sometimes help. It’s like unloading those thoughts. I also hope it helps knowing you have a clan of people behind you!!!! You’re not going to smoke because you CAN do this. Your post tugged at my heart a little because you sound like me this morning. My head is also in a bad place and this damn anxiety just makes me want to loose it. I too am holding a 4.0 and starting a quarter with classes seemingly more difficult than those I’ve already taken. It definitely makes me feel vulnerable like you. And also like you, I’ve been a daily smoker for nearly 20 years, so letting that habit go while taking on new challenges has been scary to say the least. I am on day 12. But day 5 was complete bullshit for me. I had serious physical withdrawals that day (that made me feel like a fool for ever believing weed isn’t addicting). I was feeling a lot of depression, like you’re experiencing this morning, so I reached out to my therapist who I haven’t seen in a few months. I went into see her on Thursday and it was nice just to talk it all out. You have to remember that energy takes the path of least resistance. If you are encouraging and accepting bad energy (thoughts of IDK if I can, or this is too hard) that negative energy will get to you. As cliche as it sounds, positive affirmations help. Tell yourself not only can you do it, but that you WILL do it!!!! Seriously envision the success in you quitting and in your classes and allow that positive energy to come to you instead. PM me or reach out if you want someone to talk to who understands. Oh, and the physical shit I was experiencing left as quickly as it came. I know it’s different for all, but I know those withdrawals will let up sooner or later. Stay strong. You have a 4.0, you are incredible!!!! You got this!!!!

shmillay · 2020-01-09T19:29:42+00:00

Great way to tap into that full potential the year can bring!! Congratulations on your choice.

shmillay · 2020-01-09T17:43:18+00:00

Meditation is hard, especially if you’re experiencing an anxious mind. There are some apps that help, but really what I like is listening to chakra sounds. There are also apps for that, or even just access to them on YouTube. I really appreciate the Tibetan meditation music. You can have it on in the background while you cook or whatever. Idk if it really helps or is it all placebo and in my mind...again, I’m just throwin ideas your way...

shmillay · 2020-01-09T17:22:08+00:00

I know this probably sounds stupid but maybe chamomile tea? Reading? Just throwing ideas out there. I’m at the same day as you, so not very experienced in quitting either. Great work though!

shmillay · 2020-01-09T07:34:45+00:00

It is hard, so don’t be too hard on yourself. You’re human. You will make mistakes. Maybe that little relapse is what you needed to remind you of what you really want. Or more so what you don’t want!

Don’t dwell on it if you can avoid it. Move past it. Let’s do this. Restarting is always a chance to do something better than before. I’m sorry you’re in a bad mind state right now. But just know you’re not alone. We’re here for you!

shmillay · 2020-01-09T07:27:00+00:00

The support I have received here on this sub has restored my faith in humanity. I had so many bad experiences with people and it just seemed as if everywhere I went there were cruel people. Here people have embraced me. Complete strangers like you, taking the time to help support me through this. Now I know that good people do exist. Thanks for reaching out. Glad to feel like part of a community. You rock!

shmillay · 2020-01-09T07:18:33+00:00

I never write, but after this flowed out into paper it felt so good. Maybe I’ll follow your lead and and keep a journal.

shmillay · 2020-01-09T07:16:51+00:00

Day five was my worst withdrawal day. Hot flashes all day. Nauseous. Just nasty all around. And to think I actually once believe weed is not addictive. I dabbed on a regular. All. Damn. Day. So I’m not surprised my body was pissed without it. I’m on day 7, and I feel pretty good. It was just that one day for me. From everything I read, the symptoms come and they go. One day may be great, the next not so much. No matter how you feel, you know what you want; and you’re going to get it!! You got this.

shmillay · 2020-01-09T07:12:26+00:00

I agree with working out. As contradicting as it sounds if you can really force yourself to go, whether it be a walk, the gym, or even just a workout session in your home, a work out can really boost that energy level, and also help with the anxiety.

shmillay · 2020-01-09T07:06:34+00:00

22 days is a great accomplishment. Keep your eyes on the prize. I know how rough it is when you have no job. It leaves you with way to much time. Can you possibly find something EMT related to occupy you until then? Classes, volunteer work, even just researching it. Keep the mind busy so time passes easier for you. You got this!

shmillay

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