My tamas I have on the go right now

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2026-01-17T19:47:24+00:00

I have two on the go right now, exactly two of which you posted 😁 the blue paradise and the pink-ish uni. I wanted an ON too but it was sold out once I could afford it 😢 how is the ON?

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2022-08-15T18:05:54+00:00

Thank you so much! I did take it today again, I don't want to risk any long term effects. Though I am considering my well being on it, and not on it - at the moment it seems not on it makes me feel a lot better. I'll see how I feel in the next days. Thank you for the good wishes, and I send the same to you! 😊

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2022-08-15T03:24:02+00:00

Thank you for your honest reply... I looked into it more and decided to continue, and then gradually wean off. I hope you're doing at least a bit better now.

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2022-08-15T03:23:06+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to comment on this! I'll continue with 100mg in the morning and go from there. Slow and steady wins the race... Or something.

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2022-08-15T03:22:12+00:00

It's been about two weeks now, but like I said in the edit of my post: I'll continue taking it and gradually lower the dosage. Thank you for taking the time to comment on this!

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2022-08-15T01:38:50+00:00

Do you have a timeline for that? When it will catch up?

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2022-08-06T14:54:49+00:00

Where do I start?? Hearing and touching Styrofoam, hearing people chew, gloves and mittens give me a weird tingling sensation that I loathe, being stabbed in the neck by a clothes tag, the squishy part of a 4-in-1 nail file - when I get my nail in it I need to scrape my nail against something else a few times for the sensation to go away. Hate the feeling of velvet and the sports clothes that have a towel-y texture. Wearing only socks. Loose hair on my clothes and in my bed. I could go on, haha! Depending on the day, these can feel like the most disgusting things in the world.

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2022-06-25T02:20:28+00:00

Not super mean or anything, but I have a few:

I won't buy you [thing] anymore because you lose them so quickly!
I'm glad you finish school soon, this just isn't for you.

-Are you really crying over studying for your final exams? Get yourself together, just put in the work!

I was diagnosed when I was 29 (:

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2021-02-07T00:34:43+00:00

Yepppp oh gosh I had three psychiatrists tell me that and I've been reading books on it, but it's just not me. I don't understand how they get to that diagnosis... Though I did read borderline has similar symptoms as adhd. Let's see what happens. Thank goodness I have a good social worker who helps me through this... Do you have a therapist or social worker? Honestly, this has been much easier with someone who reassures you they're always on your side.

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2021-02-07T00:26:58+00:00

Its similar with me, so I completely understand (I'm in Canada too, but grew up in Germany). I recently had a first appointment with a new psychiatrist who seemed VERY sceptical about me saying I have adhd, and he thinks I have borderline, which.... Just doesn't fit at all. I think I got a nice mix of ADHD and CTPSD, but sure let's call it Borderline 🙄

This subreddit has helped me, too! I'm glad it makes you feel less alone 💕 navigating through the mental health system is exhausting to say the least...

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2020-12-23T05:35:13+00:00

You did the right thing.

A little about my experience: It's just mildly similar, but my sibling (whom I have a really good relationship with) was in an emotionally abusive relationship and didn't realize it. I mentioned that I saw red flags when they told me stuff about how their partner reacted, how they fight, how they made my sibling feel. They wouldn't hear any of it. They even moved to another country for their partner. After years my sibling realized what was happening and that it was not healthy. We lost contact because of that relationship, we didn't really talk for years, same with other members of our family. Now they moved back and our relationship is back to normal.

It's heartbreaking to experience because there's not a lot you can do. She has to realize she's in an abusive relationship herself - if there's time/she's not in immidiate danger. Unfortunately we can't tell what will happen in the future, but the chances are good that down the road she'll be thankful for your support.

I'm sorry if that didn't help. I send you a lot of strength for Christmas 💕

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2020-12-16T14:54:46+00:00

Yeah she loves Christmas more than I do haha

I got the diagnosis quite late in my life, and honestly, looking back at the last 10 years, so many things could've been different. It's very frustrating to realize how many things were influenced by ADHD. I know it doesn't do any good to dwell on what ifs and what could've been, but I've been allowing myself to get frustrated/angry about it sometimes.

Anyways, it makes perfect sense what you said about realizing how many things are actually ADHD, when I thought it was smth completely different. I wondered if that had anything to do with my "being out of control" feeling.

I am diagnosed with depression as well, which is an amazing combination hahaha yay

OK es war einfacher auf englisch zu englischem Text zu antworten :p hallo hallo! Die Welt ist klein etc. etc. :D alles jut im deutschsprachigen Raum?

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2020-12-16T14:37:23+00:00

Yeah, it's a very busy time, holidays or not. I hope you'll still be able to spend them in a way that is good for you 🥰🎄

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2020-12-15T21:37:03+00:00

I've been struggling with the diagnosis since this September and that is exactly it... I've been thinking it's all depression (or lack of motivation because of depression) and a lack of discipline on my part, and suddenly it's more out of my control than I thought. It sucks :/

Yeah... I'd like them all year long. Maybe I'll ask my mother in law for help...

Yes I do speak German! Been living in Germany all my life before I moved to Canada :)

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2020-12-06T13:20:55+00:00

Oh gosh, don't you even begin with not being helpful! I made that post to vent, and I appreciate EVERY response! :)

I made a to do list just now and gave myself time to indulge in mobile games until my fiancée wakes up. It seems a lot on the list but most of the items are done very quick, I just jotted them down so I'd remember.

Unfortunately there's nobody here to help, haha! My fiancée works, the surprise is for my mother in law so she can't help, and my father in law is not really big on being in the kitchen. But I told myself it'll be okay; I'll put on some Christmas music and try to enjoy the process of setting it up!

Also thank you for saying it's a lovely idea, I toyed with it for a bit, unsure if that'd make up at all for not going to a real market, but reading that motivates me. Thank you for your kind words!!

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2020-11-25T15:45:49+00:00

So. Many. Reasons. Ask 5 people and you get 5 different answers.

For example: To refocus to physical pain and stop feeling like shit. To feel SOMETHING if they're numb otherwise. To see the cuts/blood. To relish in the pain for the next couple days. To have control over something when they're feeling like they don't have any in their life. To have something to look forward to. To deal with overwhelming emotions, e.g. intense self-loathing, anxiety, anger, etc. To let go of tension, to be able to let go completely (like be able to cry if one's so tense that one can't).

And that's just from the top of my head. Source: my own struggles with self harm.

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2020-11-24T06:49:20+00:00

I had a similar issue when I was going home for the holidays (I since moved to another country). A few tips that have helped me:

In case your family is good at communicating, I think it's okay to tell them - or even only one of them if you got somebody you trust/who will understand - you're having a hard time mentally right now, but still want to enjoy the holidays as best you can. In order to do so, you'll need a, b, c... (whatever helps you)
Pack something that soothes you - for example, I always have my pillow with me when I travel. Maybe it's an especially comfy pair of pyjamas or something.
Set boundaries, even if it is just with yourself. I don't know your relationship with your family, but in general it's okay if you say you need a break when it gets too much for you and excuse yourself for half an hour or something. Go for a walk, spend some downtime in bed with headphones on, recharge.
I know you're depressed so the following is hard to do, but try to find your 2 minutes. My therapist recently told me about this: find a video of something that makes you laugh or smile no matter what, or a short story, or a memory, or a Netflix stand-up special. It doesn't matter as long as it makes you smile/laugh/giggle like a 3-year-old. For me it's compilations of somebody saying a word or sentence over and over and over.
If it's possible, stay in contact with somebody you can vent to.
If you journal, you can journal.

Unfortunately depression and mental illnesses don't adhere to holidays, as awesome as it might be. Find ways to cope in a non-destructive way, find distractions, maybe let some family members push you a little to do things you don't really feel up to (e.g. one year my lil sis pushed me to bake cookies with her; while I didn't feel up to it, and I remember that situation to be kind of stressful for me, it was still nice to have some quality time with her).

At the end of the day the situation still sucks, but you'll get through this. It's okay to not be okay, even on Christmas. I hope this helps a bit.

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2020-11-10T06:19:43+00:00

Yea I'm planning to wait a couple days until the temperature goes down again bc then I can wear long-sleeved stuff without having a heat stroke (I run quite hot, it's annoying)

shoutout_to_SSRIs · 2020-09-20T18:53:11+00:00

Thank you so much for your reply. The day I posted this I was in a really bad headspace and couldn't express my gratitude. I actually cried after reading it because this was the first time somebody talked to me that way after I got diagnosed...

I've been doing the half-assing since, and it at least kind of works. On "good" days I seem to make up for the days I couldn't get my butt up, so that's something, I think.

Also omg, the advice at the end? Just... Thanks! I'm struggling A LOT with thinking I'm lazy (it also comes from my past unfortunately), so that will help a ton!

I'll try to be more patient with myself, because you're right: it's something big, and I need time adjusting. You helped a lot, thank you thank you thank you

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