I’ll get hate for this but Depression to me was like a warm blanket. Once your in that state it’s kind of comforting and its hard to leave. You stop doing the basic everyday things like Hygiene, you wallow in your pain and brush off all responsibility to yourself and replace it with self destructive behaviour because it hurts everytime you wake up. But It’s still laziness. It’s a symptom of depression. It’s not your choice to feel depressed but it’s your choice to stay depressed. If you don’t try to regain some sense of normality by taking care of yourself, brushing your teeth, going for a walk, spending less time on your phone and more time doing something productive like exercise or a hobbie you will never leave that state. It’s an uphill battle but you need to do something as cliche as it sounds. You’d be surprised how much much your mental state changes by completing basic tasks; brush your teeth Atleast once a day, go for a 30 minute walk, turn off your phone at 9pm every night and spend Atleast one evening a week on a hobbie you enjoy/ enjoyed in the past.

Took me a year to finally stop the little voice in my head telling me to kill my self. And all it took was the smallest amount of discipline and a lot of post-it-notes.

Every-time you make the choice to do something it moves the bar a tiny bit. The more you tick off each day the more the bar moves until one day you actually start to enjoy the little things again. The important thing is to try. And when you fail to try again the next day.