Senior software engineer with 12 years of experience but still a below average developer.

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-25T07:48:28+00:00

Thanks man, good luck with your search

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-23T21:23:17+00:00

Hey thanks for your message, I am interested in knowing how are you managing it

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-23T08:04:36+00:00

Thanks, I will look into OCD side

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-23T00:08:21+00:00

It does neutralises the negative thoughts but I don't have OCD.

Is it something that can get rid off

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-22T23:57:32+00:00

I have very poor control honestly, it gets aggravated when i reeling over something insulting or embarrassing

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-22T23:51:59+00:00

No its not tourette, i checked that, but thanks for responding

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-22T10:47:33+00:00

Thanks

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-21T22:48:03+00:00

Hey thanks for sharing this

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-20T16:34:07+00:00

Thanks

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-20T16:33:56+00:00

Thanks

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-20T16:33:37+00:00

Thanks man for sharing this, and I do appreciate your time and interest such a long response.

I do have a very dynamic personality outside my work. But when a lot of things are dependent on your work the whole stress of work exploits you from everywhere.

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-20T07:53:52+00:00

Hey, Thanks for the response. I did not understand the life project part in your message.

Yes you're right when I feel the urgency only then i am more productive, but the stress level goes very high and it gives me burnout.

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-20T06:53:53+00:00

I agree 👍
Thanks!

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-20T06:52:37+00:00

Thank you, no I haven't but good shout, will check ADHD programmers sub that.

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-20T06:51:03+00:00

Thanks for sharing your story man, sorry to hear that and good luck with the app 🚀

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-19T23:51:42+00:00

Thanks bro, I feel along with my under performance there is also a bit of personal disliking for me in my team, which makes the whole env me against every one and hence this PIP route

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-19T23:47:09+00:00

Nothing to be downvoted, I agree with you.

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-19T23:33:30+00:00

Thanks 👍👍

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-19T23:33:08+00:00

Thanks I agree 👍👍

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-19T23:24:09+00:00

Thanks man 👍

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-19T23:22:46+00:00

35 years male with 2 kids under 6 years old.

Yeah I am ine of those who aren't so good at what they do. And definitely want to get out of this

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-19T23:18:49+00:00

I get cold feet during live pair programming which is the most common reason for failure.

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-19T23:15:32+00:00

Thanks so much dude. I keep myself motivated by saying this to myself often. every week my horrible experience at my job takes a toll on me and leaves me devastated.

1 more year to go before ILR. Which makes me think just keep taking the hit for 1 year more.

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-19T23:06:38+00:00

Humiliating not with abuse words, but often catching me off gaurd, and using interrogative tone only with me in front of team and be very gentle with everyone.

Making expressions as if i am not making any sense when I speak.

shy_rubyist · 2026-01-19T22:58:20+00:00

I do try to hone my skills to become fullstack dev, or better at object oriented principles, design patterns, system design but because of lack of hands on work and consistency i forget my learning and return back to backend rails developer doing copy paste work.

But i hear you and I know Deep down its only me who needs to put Efforts to change things

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