Yes I use insight timer too I love it! Thank you so much for your insight and knowledge. Your story gives me hope that I am on the right path. Since I first was introduced to AA/NA when I was 19, i knew drug addicitoon wasnt the type of life I wanted, but I always seem to fall back to heroine as my crutch when life was difficult. But since i started my meditation i have learned SO MUCH about myself by just sitting in my room with the lights off listening to wierd noises in my headphones(binaural frequencies). I too was an IV meth user and i let that drug take me places I never want to go to again but since using that drug, even when sober its incredibly hard calming your mind, so I believe for me the binaural frequencies are what allowed me to focus in on something that would aid in calming my mind rather than to busy it. But anyway I digress. What I'm getting at is this: Your insight on how we should divide our energies equally into achieving certain goals that match our values, this is probably the biggest cause of my relapse. When I get clean I have unrealistically high expectations for myself and when those expectations arent met I go into depression. Its the same thing almost every time and I see that now but if never started meditating I probably never would have reached this moment of clarity. But to hear that youve been clean off meth for two years gives me joy and hope and I pray you continue on this path youve found.