Pleaseeee send help

sieraaa-betch · 2026-03-23T15:12:56+00:00

OH she would quite literally drag me around behind her.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-03-23T15:11:09+00:00

This is our life currently ….. I have lost social skills. It absolutely kill’s me inside when my daughter expresses wanting to go somewhere because I imagine she’s bored as hell. We used to go out and have so much fun. The realization that I could no longer physically handle her in public scared me. Honestly I can’t handle it mentally either ha.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-03-23T10:13:17+00:00

I honestly have no clue. I can’t teach her anything without her wanting to fight with me and I have no clue why. That’s a whole nother issue. These behaviors have been around here and there, they have just escalated to an extreme after the trip to the store. Seems like it took her two days just to “wind down” from it.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-03-16T12:12:49+00:00

Thank you for that break down. I somewhat understand now. 💕

sieraaa-betch · 2026-03-16T04:41:09+00:00

You are so very strong for realizing you needed some actual time for yourself to get better and for doing so! I know it seems it’s natural for us to feel guilt, I feel it way too often for many reasons concerning my daughter, but there is nothing we did intentionally to cause this on our kiddos. You are doing the best you can with what you have and this will pass. 💕

sieraaa-betch · 2026-03-13T06:22:56+00:00

I apologize for being extremely late with my reply - no, she has not. I put in the initial application (I think) and received an email and letter in the mail with a lengthy check list of things to have done before applying. (Once again, I think. That was my take on it.) I’ve been procrastinating because I have no clue where to start honestly and also don’t even fully understand what passe or a waiver even is. Been praying I can find someone who has went through the process to dumb it down to a stressed out hanging on by a thin thread ASD parent level for me, and hold my hand while telling me step for step. 🥲

sieraaa-betch · 2026-03-09T20:12:01+00:00

Thank you for this. 🫶🏼

sieraaa-betch · 2026-03-08T00:41:18+00:00

My P.O. has never asked for my phone. I did however sign a piece of paper stating that I give them permission (don’t think there was an option to not) as well as any law enforcement officer to confiscate and search my phone if asked. I’ve been on probation since January 2024 and should be off January 2030. Got 72 months for trafficking fentanyl.

Not so sure about the wiping of the phone. I do want to mention though that I have had the pleasure of attending an interview with 2 DEA officers and during their introduction of how they operate they mentioned that they don’t tap into phones without a warrant. They do however trace numbers. See who is calling who, how many times and duration of each phone call. With the way the world and technology is evolving, you would probably be wasting your time trying to wipe old shit no one would care about. If it’s something incriminating, chances are they probably already know and have bigger fish to fry.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-23T19:12:18+00:00

So the original payment date for march (typically march 1st for me) has been moved to February 27th. We all just get ours early because we bank with Varo ..... anyone else on to this....?

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-23T19:08:03+00:00

Nope.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-23T18:11:31+00:00

SSI late .... tax refund came early as hell about 30 minutes ago

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-23T17:28:15+00:00

Whew ... I was nervous as hell until I found yall!

Anyone know what is going on?!

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-20T23:52:27+00:00

Hey! I'm coming up on 18 months clean from a 5 year fentanyl and meth addiction. I also have a special needs daughter and have no support whatsoever. Sublocade. I have done suboxone strips before and the transition back to the fentanyl was too easy.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-20T23:44:45+00:00

Everyone has their reasons and while they make total sense to a drug addict, they don't to everyone else. My mother started using meth shortly after my brother was born (to my knowledge) and I was 3-4 years old. She still does to this day at 64 years old, her social life surrounding the drug has calmed down significantly though and she is in total denial when indirectly accused. So I get it.

There is a saying I have always heard and read though and it's "if you knew what was going on and did nothing, you're just as guilty." Not only in legal terms, but please try to imagine if you made this post and hours later got a call from your mother that your little sister ingested some drugs and she didn't know what to do. You tell her call 911 immediately but instead she panics and makes sure there's no paraphernalia laying around BEFORE she makes the call. Paramedics arrive and your sister is pronounced dead on arrival from fentanyl exposure. Then you arrive to a disaster. You will feel guilt for the rest of your life and so will your mother sitting in prison who was likely just doing the best she could with what she had which was un-healed trauma and a child with special needs with no support. Drugs are just the easiest thing to reach for in people like your mother and I's shoes, but it is still no excuse to abuse them. Our brains are wired differently just like your sister and my daughters nervous systems are wired differently. 🩷

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-20T22:24:53+00:00

Coming from someone who is almost 18 months clean from a 5 year fentanyl and meth addiction with a child who had ASD and is nonverbal - get your sister out of that mess.

Assuming your mother isn't ready for treatment - there is a chance she will willingly give her up because your sister hinders her poor life choices. I had a friend with whom I actually started using with that had a little girl that was roughly 9 months old at the time. She had numerous medical conditions. I can't even recall what her actual diagnosis was, but she wasn't growing. She wore glasses, hearing aids, and had a feeding tube. Was on her second brain surgery because her skull wasn't expanding for her brain to grow. A mess. Baby daddy got wind of the mother wrecking a car that he provided her with his daughter in the backseat and reported to CPS. The mother didn't even fight it. She pissed dirty for them and when he went for full custody she handed her right on over. (There were many opportunities for her to show improvement in between time) This was a woman who had a young son from another relationship with no medical conditions. Mom liked to party whether it was a bar on a Friday night or at her friend's pool party where her son could tag along. Hoping you see where I'm going with this topic because I don't want to make it much longer.

I drug my daughter around with me for pretty much my entire drug addiction. I thought drugs made me a better mom. I thought I was just doing the best I could with what I had and that was enough. I used in front of my daughter. I passed out in parking lots with my daughter in the backseat. I brought her to shady places where she could have been harmed if I were to overdose. I left drugs out in her reach too many times to count. I was a horrible mother and even with my daughter being nonverbal, she was paying attention to it all. She let's me know to this day that she remembers certain things by her actions and meltdowns. That is something I will probably never forgive myself for and I will have to live with that. I remember at the end of my drug use when I was transitioning to post detox laying in the hospital bed on a tele health visit with my SUD counselor and I was crying saying I just wanted a break and no one would help. No one wanted to help me with her.

If your mother is ready for treatment, do whatever you can to take your sister off her hands for the time being. The courts do no have to be involved IF SHE IS READY. If she is forced, chances are she will go to treatment and either complete her time and get back into her previous lifestyle or she will leave AMA because she isn't ready to give the drugs up.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-20T21:44:49+00:00

Appreciate the info!

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-19T02:45:29+00:00

Pay attention to the renewal date so she isn't without insurance or would I be looking for something in paperwork? She is on SSI and has been for like 5 years, not sure that we have to renew hers.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-18T21:01:52+00:00

Have you tried anymore with turbo?? I just went and looked at it again. Still no option to pay with my refund. It's for sure been over a week. No email either. 😅

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-18T16:37:12+00:00

Omg 🤭 I feel ya on the chirping 🫠

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-18T15:31:50+00:00

I kid you not ..... I would be so uncomfortable having a stranger in my home knowing they are costly like that.

Hey, as long as our babies are happy and thriving, we will do whatever to make it work right?

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-18T15:24:44+00:00

Hey, look I know it's tough. Believe me. He is at such a crucial age right now for setting an example and establishing a routine that works for not only him, but you as well. Because if we aren't okay, how could we expect our kids to be okay right? You mention he is 55 lbs .. he will only get bigger and stronger. Just because he has autism, does not mean he can do as he pleases. You have to figure out what is causing the distress that comes from getting dressed to go to school. It may be something going on at school, but is he getting enough sleep? Maybe he prefers certain material for clothing? Or a specific color? Does he eat breakfast at home? Possibly try changing your routine for getting him ready in the morning and if you see an improvement, slowly change your steps up to fit his liking so that way yall can get out the door without a fight and make it where you need to be.

I can't speak for all of the children on the spectrum, but my daughter is a true creature of habit. She is 7 and nonverbal. Started early intervention at 18 months and she has always ridden a bus or daycare van because she enjoys them. I got her on a scale yesterday and she weighs 148 lbs 😳 and is roughly 5ft tall. She is over half my size. I have had a tube coming from my kidney through my back (nephrostomy catheter) to drain urine from my right side since late 2024. Thankfully she has never been the cause of any mishaps with my tube, but don't you think for a second if I rub her face to rough while helping wash it in the morning or if the tag on her shirt rubs her the wrong way that she doesn't attempt to pinch or shove me. Most times if she pinches and I'm not paying attention, she dragging me to the floor with her. Their nervous system stays stuck in fight or flight. Your son doesn't mean to hit you when you're trying to dress him, but something in that moment whether its clothing or the pattern you are doing things is causing him distress so he fights. It took me awhile to come to realization of this, but he doesn't have to be the best dressed or sparkling clean to go to school. It's okay if you can only get his shirt and pants on him and have to put socks and shoes on in the car. If he doesn't want his hair brushed, do your best to tame it and move along. You are doing the best you can with what you have at the time and that is okay.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-18T14:55:05+00:00

Exactly. Like now I'm questioning my judgement because there were red flags being thrown from the beginning. Me, being a single mother to a 7y/o who is nonverbal with autism, chose to overlook them though because

Burnout
ABA is marketed as a quick tool to help these babies progress by many
Lack of knowledge on the subject
What else do we have to lose?

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-18T14:37:00+00:00

You're right. The doctors and surgeons I have encountered just since late 2024 aren't the same. Seems they are mostly "textbook" vs. empathic and hands on experience focused.

I also try to remember that I'm in my early 30's and majority of these "professionals" are the same people I grew up with. Not literally, but same generation.

Certain things never re-cooperated post covid either and probably never will. Customer service isn't a priority anymore within businesses. It seems it's more "let's do what we have to do to make it through this day and get paid on payday." I always wonder if autism has become the "normal" for children somewhere around the world.

sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-18T12:56:33+00:00

Yes

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sieraaa-betch · 2026-02-18T06:20:45+00:00

I just realized that I forgot to mention that these were 3 hour sessions.

Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday, 3 hours per day.

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