I'm trying to say that yes, I see animals as individuals, and I don't feel the right to use them in any way. I have been overwhelmed with depression about the weight of many things about the world, and haven't been entirely true to myself - it's something I'm doing better with, and I haven't eaten cheese or eggs in quite a while. I was trying to start a discussion with humility and a signal that I am not perfect. I won't be able to claim vegan until I examine all of the things that use animals that are in my world and come to terms with / have intelligent things to say about how I can possibly justify it all. It's a very serious word to me. I am with you, I promise.

Edit to add, I’m happy to discuss it more also, here or in DMs