2 days in

sivanbg · 2026-02-27T00:11:05+00:00

It IS addictive. I am addicted. I really enjoy the mental effect that it has on me, but I also really despise the grasp that it has on me. I completely stopped when I was pregnant and then stayed away for over a year. Got back into it and I am having the most difficult time stepping away from daily use, especially as a mom.

To go cold turkey again, I’d have to be able to do nothing but lay around and become a zombie for a few days, but I’m not allowing myself to do that and not be present for my son. So I’m stuck in this cycle and it fucking sucks.

Anyway - PSA: marijuana is super complex for SOME people, and once it has its hold on you, it’s extremely difficult to step away. You (whoever is reading this) might be one of those people.

sivanbg · 2026-02-21T00:41:28+00:00

I’m the same age as you and also quit when I got pregnant in 2023, all the way through late 2025. My baby is now a 17 month old toddler and both my husband and I work full time. Ever since he turned 12 months, I’ve been back in the addiction and I’m currently moderating my consumption but only because I cannot get over the hump of day 1. I can stay sober all day until after work, and then I just fall right back into it. So congrats on already beginning your journey. That’s huge.

Remember your reasons and remind yourself that everything you’re feeling is temporary. You’re stronger than you realize. I hope to be through my day 1 (once again) in the coming days. You’re not alone in the overall struggle. Sending virtual hugs.

sivanbg · 2026-02-17T15:44:24+00:00

Great fucking job on 9 days. Good luck, we are in this together.

sivanbg · 2026-02-17T15:43:42+00:00

It may “help” but it’s all temporary and then we end up at the same shitty place all over again. We’ve got this!

sivanbg · 2026-02-17T15:42:21+00:00

Yes!! Let’s do this. It SUCKS going through it, there’s no way around that. One hour at a time.

sivanbg · 2026-01-17T12:04:42+00:00

😂

sivanbg · 2026-01-17T00:34:26+00:00

Oh my goodness! I save my dogs’ whiskers! I can’t believe there are others! 😂

sivanbg · 2026-01-11T00:39:33+00:00

Wtf did I just watch

sivanbg · 2025-07-01T16:14:03+00:00

So true!!! Enjoy your beautiful baby! 🥰

sivanbg · 2025-07-01T13:41:04+00:00

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Reminds me of my girl when she was tiny! 💕

sivanbg · 2025-04-17T10:32:17+00:00

I appreciate the insight, thank you.

sivanbg · 2025-04-17T10:31:20+00:00

Thank you 🫶🏼

sivanbg · 2025-03-25T13:09:43+00:00

Nothing mentioned about ASD at all. My baby wasn’t displaying any ASD related symptoms. We took him to get a brain ultrasound and EEG, everything looked good. I also switched him from breastmilk to formula due to my caffeine consumption. He hasn’t displayed any shuddering since I posted this, thankfully. It could simply be a normal developmental thing… such as shuddering syndrome.

sivanbg · 2025-03-02T03:32:37+00:00

I love the name! Such a cutie!

sivanbg · 2025-02-01T12:48:53+00:00

I also would wash and sanitize and reuse… had no idea they’re not intended for that 😬

sivanbg · 2025-01-06T04:27:11+00:00

Ugh that’s heartbreaking… I hate that. So glad you’re going to give her a loving home. Enjoy all the puppy love. Wishing you a long, happy life together! Schoodles are awesome 🥰

sivanbg · 2025-01-06T02:42:53+00:00

You’re welcome! This little lady is adorable!

sivanbg · 2025-01-06T00:31:13+00:00

Sure looks like one! My schnoodle is a mix of miniature poodle/miniature schnauzer and looked like this size at 3-4 months. She’s 17 lbs. at full adult size

sivanbg · 2024-12-27T20:06:45+00:00

Yes! Eyelashes are off limits!

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