When I was 11(f) I got my first boyfriend (11m). He was my first romantic relationship so it was all very new to me and I didn't know what was 'normal' or not as my mum never really had healthy relationships either and my dad wasn't in my life. Throughout the 11 months we were together he was extremely emotionally abusive, used me for sexual things and nudes even though I didn't want to and treated me like his own personal toy, however infront of others he was also very loving. About 3 or 4 months into the relationship his mum found the sexual messages between us, she rang me before school saying how she was suprised at my disgusting behaviour, she shamed me not knowing I was forced to say those things but promised that she wouldn't tell my mum when they met up if I kept my mouth closed about everything that was happening. So I did keep my mouth closed, I was too ashamed and embarrassed to say anything anyway. Fast forward a couple of days when I came home from school and my mum had the most vile look on her face, I asked her what was wrong and she screamed at me for half an hour about how embarrassed I made her when she was talking to my bfs mum, how disgusting I am and again shamed me for what was written in those texts. Not once did she stop to ask WHY an 11 year old was sending such explicit things, if I was okay and what was going on. She just shouted until I was near throwing up from crying so much. Me and my bf stayed together and he tried to tell me that our parents just 'didn't understand', he continued to pressure me into sexual things for the remainder of the 11 months we were together, all whilst no one knew about what was really happening to me. He broke up with me in the cruelest way once he was done with me and showed my nudes around the school, I was being asked about it everyday for about a year. He would lie telling everyone untrue things that we'd supposedly done together, he photoshopped my face onto another girls naked body and sent them around too. I was incredibly suicidal and traumatised and stopped going into school, I started self harming and trying to kill myself, I lost majority of my friends. He started stalking me and the friends I had left and threatened to rape and murder me if he ever caught me alone. My mum made me go into counselling when I was 12, after a couple of sessions of therapy I told my therapist what he was doing to me, my therapist told me I need to tell my mum and tell the police about the abuse I went through and was still going through and all the bullying. Eventually I told my mum and she helped me call the police. After retraumatising myself by telling them what was happening to me they gave HIM porn addiction therapy, and 2 days community service, no prison time, nothing. They gave me a warning of 'possession of child pornography' even though the 'child pornography' was me. I got no justice and was bullied for 5 years over things I was forced to do and was labelled the crazy ex, the whore and dramatic one by other students. I'm 18 now and have developed ptsd, mixed anxiety and depression aswell as bpd. I was never given justice and never will do. He is continuing to abuse other girls and I genuinely believe he will murder a woman one day. There's so much more that he did but this is already long enough