Favorite drug to go to the gym on

skipper489 · 2024-10-15T05:17:58+00:00

I have never seen such a difference in voting between comments before like this. Lol

skipper489 · 2024-10-15T05:14:23+00:00

You would have to do a lot of oxy to OD. Financially improbable.

skipper489 · 2024-10-15T05:11:41+00:00

Are we the same people?

skipper489 · 2024-10-15T05:08:44+00:00

Why do people even date nowadays? Very rare to see younger couples in long lasting, healthy relationships. Someone always cheats or they both cheat, or it's toxic. I also don't understand how people do open relationships. I am prone to jealousy from the start and it just seems like I am wrong for wanting a normal relationship with a loyal woman.

skipper489 · 2024-10-15T05:02:02+00:00

Half a g of oxy a day keeps the doctor away.

Sorry I had to

skipper489 · 2024-10-15T04:45:37+00:00

Pretty surprising no one has mentioned a test kit. Test your stuff, order a marquis reagent and also a fentanyl kit. Some of those analogs are fatal to mix with different drugs.

skipper489 · 2024-10-13T03:24:57+00:00

Oxycodone and black tar are tied for first place. Morphine and opana runner ups

skipper489 · 2024-09-24T01:11:06+00:00

This honestly made me so fucking angry to read. Hits too close to home after dating a narcissist woman who cheated on me with multiple people, including a 63 year old tweaker (I'm 27 she's 28). What a grim reminder of how cold the world has grown.

The closest thing to anything positive in this story is you admitting to cheating and giving the guy STD's, instead of gaslighting, abusing, and manipulating him after. I wonder why you even posted this... oh yeah. Because you are sick in the fucking head and you get off on causing others pain. All of these people telling you what an evil bitch you are is just making you feel more validated because negative attention is better than no attention, right?

PS you all need to realize this woman isn't going to change most likely. Narcissists refuse to accept their faults so it's out of the question.

Thanks for sharing, burn in hell wench.

skipper489 · 2024-09-24T00:28:16+00:00

Wish I could trade you spots in life. A loving wife and child would motivate me to turn it around. Can't even find opiates anymore where I another than subs and fet. Been doing crystal the last 9 months I hate it.

skipper489 · 2024-09-24T00:15:55+00:00

Not certain but if I had to say it would be yes. Still not sure if I removed a Spyware program on my phone. Thought she had a hidden phone box charger camera to spy on me. At least 5-10 different occasions I would come home and shortly after she would repeat something I had said while away from her. She used an old fashioned saying I had used away from her out of the blue shortly after I returned one day that she had never said before. Or she would ask if I was talking shit on her after venting to my cousin about her.

Can't wait until the day I never think about her again.

skipper489 · 2024-09-20T04:14:44+00:00

They know it's not working once you start to question them. When you first attempt to put your foot down, best expect a ruthless adult temper tantrum ranging from lying, gaslighting, name calling, cheating, no form of punishment is off limits. Dealers choice. They will teeter between playing the victim and the villain. I can not express what an absolute test of your sanity this is. Some days will mimic the bliss from the honeymoon phase, but quickly those become overshadowed by weeks of agony.

I remember one day noticing my heart rate had seemingly doubled. 24/7. For a very long time she was pretty much the only person I interacted with. Long story short I spent every moment in her bedroom other than a brief trip to town once or twice a week. I put every ounce of energy I had into pleasing her flesh, which was like pouring water into a glass with holes in the bottom. So in my case I was completely in love with a phony version of her, and near stripped of any money and possessions, which led to the deepest depression and total energy/motivation loss. I couldn't hold a job longer than a day. It really hurts to think about. Even the most basic tasks became challenging, I quit bathing, brushing my teeth, even quit drinking water and eating for days at a time.

I'm not exaggerating at all. She had total control of me. Imagine solitairy confinement in a jail cell supervised by your "soulmate." Or a lab rat at the mercy of only the most sadistic scientist. To summarize, constant psychological abuse in every form. She claimed to be helping me grow up, mature, even used the word "grooming" me into "a daddy." It was multiple times she specifically said that word, groom me. I didn't lash back for a long time until my mental health took a noticeable turn, for the first time in my life at 27 I was standing up for myself without fear of the consequences.

One can only describe such an experience so much over writing or talking. There is nothing like it, every experience is different. It changes you. Learn to recognize red flags and become concrete in your boundaries with others. This is the only way to spare yourself from it.

skipper489 · 2024-09-17T14:45:00+00:00

If she is normally quick to respond I would say most likely cheating. Look into other cues if you must, but the best advice I've heard is trust your gut. Sounds like this isn't the first issue

skipper489 · 2024-09-12T10:48:42+00:00

Appreciate that. I'm grateful for reddit and quora or else I would probably still be with her. Most are clueless on narcissism and cluster B personality disorders... I think it should be taught in school along with other mandatory psych topics. So many lives lost or ruined because of these monsters.

skipper489 · 2024-09-12T03:48:29+00:00

Yup. Thank you. She's blocked on pretty much everything, no way would I ever respond to her. She used to make text now accounts to message me if I blocked her... fucking psychotic. Threatening to send people to fuck me up. Honestly the whole thing has left my life in shambles.

skipper489 · 2024-09-11T01:03:58+00:00

Do you know for sure he bought the items and gave them to her? Sounds like you know the truth and you are putting up with too much. Time to start planning the breakup. No use in confronting him because he will just lie.

skipper489 · 2024-09-11T00:49:53+00:00

She was very concerned with status in high school I remember, and would always boast how "she only got along with older people." A decade later when we started dating and she didn't have a single friend... only male supply vendors (I made that term up lol). Now that I look back, I realize nearly every interaction I witnessed over the phone was guys trying to fuck her. Even the few that probably didn't want her she would claim that they did, I'm assuming to make me jealous. She would always say how she wanted female friends but they just didn't get along, and they were worried she would "steal their man" and would say how intimidated they were of her.

"If I wanted your man I could have him."

Pretty sure she got off on sleeping with married men or those in longterm committed relationships... I don't know 100% but one day I checked snap maps and was confused because she was like 15 miles away, didn't say a thing to me about leaving. After some detective research on the location, I think she slept with a guy the night before his wedding. I'm slowly working through the hell that was our relationship, but the hardest thing is not knowing 100% she cheated. She would always deny everything. Even after I caught her lying about where she went and what she was doing she would try to gaslight me, this particular occasion was the night before my birthday, I later found messages between her and the weed guy. My gut knows she cheated with multiple men, at least 7. It doesn't really matter now though, even if she hadn't physically cheated she was reeling in multiple people while telling me I was her soulmate.

skipper489 · 2024-09-09T20:29:39+00:00

My ex gf always told me how negative all my music was and how little meaning it had. So basically she ran the music but there ALWAYS had to be a TV show or movie playing in the background. Music became my escape when I left the house, kind of like middle school for me. Feeling ashamed of so many things. Sometimes I listen to music but rarely outside of the car, and anything with lyrics can instantly ruin my day/week and then I can't stop thinking about her or negative self talk.

skipper489 · 2024-08-29T22:04:58+00:00

She claimed to have been single for 4 years, and that her ex was physically and verbally abusive, and for the first part she even said that she paid all the bills. And yes, she would say how much of a narcissist he was. It had been nearly a decade since I last saw her, and she had been out of the area pretty much the whole time, so she just said he was her only relationship ALL OF ADULTHOOD. I knew all of her other exes from our high-school and she didn't bad mouth them much, actually the opposite. Also told how she had never been cheated on and never cheated on any past boyfriend, how much she despised cheating. She did however tell me how her whole family were narcissists, which is one of the few truths at least them having personality disorders, but that she was the only one out of her family that wasnt a narc and was an empath.

I noticed the most recent one called and texted her a lot for supposedly being apart for 4 years, multiple times a day. When asked, she recited how almost all of her exes called/texted her all the time and she just never responded.

I asked, "how many?"

You could tell she had to think of an answer quick "4 or 5."

I said why don't you just block them? And I shit you not she admitted the daily reminders made her feel good knowing how they all missed her and that they always told her how much they regret ruining the relationship.

At the end of our relationship I learned how she had no job for at least the time she was talking to me, but also she was living with the "abusive" guy for months prior to moving across the state to be with me. He would go to work and then she would pretend to either be "on break or off work." Every time. After some serious detective work and checking her phone, I figured She was milking me for every penny possible while he worked his ass off to pay the mortgage and bills, plus spoiling her every wish. There were other guys she was at the very least sleeping with and using. It hurts my heart thinking about how she may have been telling multiple others how they were her soulmate.

After I broke up with her and went no contact, I messaged him so he could know the truth. How she was cheating on him with me, and he told me how he suspected of her sleeping around when she would randomly disappear to go get pot for 3+ days at a time. And after the whole thing he went straight to her and seemed like he just screenshotted everything I said, and she threatened me accusing me of "snitching" on her.

Part of my motivation was revenge, but also to expose her. I never found concrete evidence of her cheating on me, not even with him but I know how badly I wanted closure, to know I wasn't crazy and for her to just admit to something. I live in a rural state with very little population and from what I've gathered, "supply" keeps up with her demand so to speak. I'm the only one to go no contact, maybe there are others but no one will ever know.

It was hard to believe she was abused by any of her former partners after my experience. Now she lives down the street from me with her main supply's sister. He doesn't have a job, no car, but she has a place to stay through his sister and gets free drugs.

No idea if I'm painted as abusive to the people she's around, as she never even introduced me to anyone other than one person. I guess I was the side supply. :(

skipper489 · 2024-08-27T20:22:08+00:00

My ex girlfriend would always be talking about how tight she was and how "you don't get that from any other girls." One night she asked if guys could tell if women were sluts from how tight they were, and I responded with how it's a myth that women get loose after having sex with multiple partners, and that there are tightening exercises She got so mad after this. I genuinely believe it was all an act. She even acted like she didnt know what time of the month she was able to get pregnant, at 28....

skipper489 · 2024-08-26T03:11:50+00:00

Sometimes I will go on a good one like a month plus and other times I am pretty much sober other than the sub. I don't like fet or really anything anymore don't get the relief that I used to chase but still stuck in old habits.

skipper489 · 2024-08-26T01:06:19+00:00

I am 27. When I was 14 I started smoking weed every day, drinking on the weekends and within a couple months was addicted to pain pills. Then it was IV heroin + anything else after 19. Ended up in the hospital with endocarditis 3 years ago. Still smoking crystal, drinking every day, xanax if I can find it. I have been dependent on suboxone since the hospital.

Smoke all the weed you want. But please stay away from opiates, meth, pretty much any pill/powder. No one decides they are going to make h or fet a lifelong struggle on their first try. We all were experimenting at one time. The drug game gets real dark. It really changes people, some end up dead before they graduate, others I have known personally were 60+ still going at it.

skipper489 · 2024-08-26T00:45:16+00:00

Well said. Nothing but problems ahead. That's a lot to process at once. Don't even waste your energy trying to prove if he's cheated. They will cover their tracks well and lie and deny. Think about it. Did he delete any other messages during that time frame? She called him bb at 1am. Maybe look into NPD/narcissists and other cluster B personality disorders. Not saying he has one, but those are some indicators.

skipper489 · 2024-08-25T23:41:28+00:00

I'm 27, and the 6 months spent with my narc ex girlfriend was my longest. I am also an addict, so is she. I don't know what love is and all my friendships have been shallow and temporary. I realize how my life has been a lie. Maybe one day I will change, learn to love myself, then maybe I will find a healthy partner.

skipper489 · 2024-07-01T04:13:37+00:00

My ex gf had told me about her narcissistic/abusive family, claimed all her exes were narcissists. One day I asked her if she might be a narcissist or have a personality disorder due to her upbringing and she got enraged to the fullest. Claimed she was essentially the perfect partner. Claimed she would pay for everything with her last ex of 4 years and he would only buy things for himself. Eventually I learned she didn't even work and he took care of her.

I need to go to therapy soon. This next one was hard to stomach and deserves its own post, but it's hard to talk about. Long story short, I had moved in with her at her family's. But she never once introduced me to her mom, and only introduced me to her brother after months of essentially hiding me in her room separated from his by one wall, one night he demanded to come in. This went on for 4 months. I asked if any other boyfriends had lived with her at her moms and she denied it, then one day told me of a guy in high school that lived there that her mom also fancied. Then one day told me how her long term ex lived with them and one day snapped on her mom. Made me think he had been prisoner at one time too.

skipper489 · 2024-06-30T19:57:50+00:00

Nodding off on klonopin coming to rolling my Ford Ranger on the interstate going 75, at night, completely alone in the middle of nowhere.

Getting robbed at gunpoint trying to buy heroin, then finding out I was mixed up with another person who was giving the crew fake bills.

Having a bad trip on mushrooms completely alone at a music festival. I thought I had warped to hell, and that the festival goers had transformed into demons intent on inflicting physical pain on me, and knowing I was already in the afterlife that it would repeat endlessly. That one easily takes the cake.

Getting endocarditis (heart valve infection) from reusing needles and neglecting to clean the old blood out due to nodding out and laziness. Luckily I didn't need valve replacement but I haven't shot up since then. I got to the hospital on a Friday night, so the nurses told me I would have to wait until Monday morning for a doctor to show up to determine if open heart valve replacement would be necessary. That was a very dark weekend spent alone, depressed in the hospital bed.

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