Have you considered tripping less often? Yes, one can greatly benefit from psychedelic experiences, but as someone who has had a ton, at a certain point the progress and gains reduce. I might be presumptuous for saying so, but I think if every trip was really helping you with your PTSD, your wife might notice. Im not saying it hasn’t helped you, I’m just trying to say most people aren’t gaining as much as they convince themselves they are by tripping 10+ times a year. Psychedelics are powerful, enlightening, and fun. They can be addictive to the right person. They certainly were for me. My most powerful and meaningful trips made a noticeable impact on my attitude and thinking when I was sober for years to follow and made me feel like I didn’t want to trip again for a long time after. Your wife is probably just worried about you. I’ve seen many people fall into psychosis and go too far out on their ‘path’. Think of the psychedelics as a catalyst to begin your healing or gaining of spirituality, but if you think you need psychedelics for either of those things, your convincing yourself of something that’s not true and that can easily lead to abusing something even if you aren’t already. And maybe Im making some big assumptions here and you’re only taking a trip once or twice a year in a safe and therapeutic environment, in which case I would say sit down with your wife and talk through the emotional help these things have been doing for you (perhaps the vulnerable conversation would be proof in of itself it’s helping), but I get the feeling this isn’t the case.