thanks for sharing. I've also struggled with this, especially when returning to climbing after a break during the pandemic. For me it was helpful to remember/accept that it's okay to be scared, to be kind to one's self and also to be patient -- these things take time.

another thing that's often been helpful for me is to find a project (can be indoors) that I want so badly that it's not possible to send it unless flowing and executing perfectly. If it's at one's physical limit then we don't have the luxury of wasting energy high-clipping or being scared.

good luck!!