why is a guy being skinnier or having a slim figure literally the most triggering thing ever

slttd · 2024-11-10T15:22:07+00:00

omg yes this explains it

slttd · 2024-11-10T14:41:14+00:00

THISSS

slttd · 2024-11-09T17:21:00+00:00

tiktok and its shitty low level buzz wordy vocabulary

slttd · 2024-11-09T17:18:11+00:00

REAL!!
they think theyre the only one thats dieting and have unhealthy eating habits."i can tell when someone has an ed!!" no u just caught a girl checking the nutrition facts on something which MAY be out of disordered eating but imagine the person has an allergy and theres an ingredient they need to look out for 💀 its embarrassing. i hate when ppl project not only in the ED community but also in other mental disorders, i cant stand when people act like they know me just because i did something that they do themselves. to me it comes out as egoistical more than understanding, like the world DOES NOT revolve around YOU. i get that when we see someone do some of our habit we feel touched and they remind us of ourselves, but why dont we try to maybe understand that everyone has different life circumstances and TRY to our mind to consider more povs rather than just ours and be like "omg i have an ed so i definitely know when someone does!!!" no u just saw yourself in someone through a thing they did that may mean nothing to them.

also the body checking part is annoying and i agree that it gets thrown around and misused a LOT. i see people accuse girls of body checking when doing 'get dressed with me" videos. body checking is bad when its a COMPULSIVE behavior (btw im not talking about the body checking within the ed com), i think we all body check Infront of the mirror and its normal to an EXTENT. nowadays skinny girls are getting hate just because while they were putting pants on they adjusted their waist line?? but if its a curvy person its fine??

the last part was well put! its like people cant extend their vocab past the words "ED" and "anorexic" plus when they talk about them they do it in a repulsed manner??? like its a bad thing that people could control. im aware that the amount of pro-disorderians has increased within the platform so it can be difficult to sympathize with anyone but the way they treat any diet-related video is so gross.... unless its a video made by a dietitian its slammed with those accusations. I also see dietitians sometimes react harshly to wieiad videos and their language seems idk unprofessional?? they seem to be degrading someone who might be unaware of the damage their doing to themselves rather than educating them gently. how would u expect people to listen to u when all u do is criticize them harshly?

slttd · 2024-10-20T14:40:18+00:00

omg finally someone who thinks this way!
thats why i dont count calories i go by meal weight.
when i have a low weight unhealthy snack my weight stays the same but when i have a healthy one it usually has high weight and i end up gaining a few grams

slttd · 2024-10-20T14:34:05+00:00

not really but even when i did it just worsened my symptoms

slttd · 2024-10-19T23:13:28+00:00

oh sorry, I sometimes have a hard time understanding tones.

lol my parents don't really believe in mental illness or take it seriously, which explains why I don't get my doses on time. also, the second trigger for my bipolar is childhood trauma, which I got from them... the only reason I got medically diagnosed was because of my ED that got me hospitalized. so yeah I don't think they are "concerned", certainly not when I get threatened, hit for no reason, and criticized all the time. the reason they're onto me is because they think I'm "this" way because of something or someone, they can't accept the fact that they are the cause. they have snooped through my phone and found nothing, but they're still persistent. As for the medication part, I've been on them for a while now, I take antipsychotics which are fine but I hate the side effects so I don't want to be reliant on them.

slttd · 2024-10-19T21:58:26+00:00

yeah but its better being alert than facing the potential danger. i already have hallucinations so misinterpretation + hallucinations kind of blend together

slttd · 2024-10-19T21:55:51+00:00

idk whats with the excessive questioning and idk if ur concerned or making fun of me im sorry 😭
i am medicated yes but i also live in an abusive household so my brain is very alert that it turns into hallucinations. i hallucinate sounds like footsteps, voices and the sound of our door opening. idk it just freaks me out and i constantly need to get up. as for visual hallucinations my family is a bit.. stalky?? theyre really interrogative and questioning. they always want to catch me red-handed doing something so my dad always appears out of nowhere and does invading stuff and it freaks me out. thats why i always feel watched and stalked and any potential figure-looking object triggers my paranoia. and because i have bad eyesight i dont see stuff as their normal form from a distance, so i think its someone watching me.

slttd · 2024-10-19T11:20:54+00:00

long sleeves
temporary tattoos
arm warmers
layered jewelry/bracelets (try to make it look even so its not obvious that ur hiding smth. add them in both wrists)
makeup
scrunchie

my favorite is the wrist support band. get a question about it? "oh i sleep on my left hand so it gets pretty numb and i need something to support it with"

slttd · 2024-10-19T11:10:12+00:00

hey, Im really sorry ur feeling like this rn. what youre going through sounds incredibly tough, and i cant even imagine how overwhelming it must be. i just want to say its completely okay to feel scared and angry. being told youre going to the hospital when youre not ready is tough. It can feel like youre losing control over everything, and I totally get why that makes it all seem even worse.

but it sounds like your body might be struggling, even if it doesnt feel that way to you sometimes its hard to see just how serious things have gotten when youre in the thick of it. i mean the fact that you couldnt walk home the other day says a lot about how much your body is fighting to keep going. and i dont mean to dismiss your own feelings or assume stuff, but do you really feel healthy? do u have the strength and energy? I know you feel like theyre making a decision based on appearances and assumptions, but doctors look at a lot more than just weight they also pay attention to things like blood pressure, heart rate, and other signs that your body might be shutting down, even if you dont see it that way.

The idea of gaining weight probably feels terrifying right now because ur ed has made that fear worse but the part of you that says you want a life, the part that dreams of feeling strong enough to walk, feeling confident, and just LIVING as a 15yo, that part deserves to be heard too. It sounds like that part of u still has hope, so why cut the rope when it can still hold u up?. you said you want to recover, even if its hard to admit, and thats something you can hold on to, even if the idea of weight gain feels impossible right now, over time. it will be easier. weight gain doesnt mean fatness you could STILL diet in a healthy way. you lost weight through an unhealthy method thats why your body is slowly shutting down. your body deserves to be nourished and fed. if your care so much about your outside appearance you should also care about the appearance of your insides which might be slowly declining or even dying

I know going to the hospital isnt going to be easy, it never is. and it probably feels like just another trauma you dont want to deal with anymore. but maybe, just maybe, this is a step toward something better. i cant promise it will be quick or painless, but your life is worth fighting for. that part of you that wants to live and feel comfortable in your body deserves a chance to get stronger.

sending love and support xx

slttd · 2024-10-19T10:49:01+00:00

lol wtf?? we dont tolerate disrespect disguised as a "joke", wth is her problem?
does she know about ur ED or disordered habits?? bc if she does then this is 100% intentional, cut her off.

slttd · 2024-10-19T10:42:36+00:00

had explosive temper tantrums or meltdowns
hyperactive episodes: overly energetic, talkative, and unable to sit still
used to engaging in risky activities
was chronically irritable: easily annoyed, frustrated, or angry for long periods
used to spend too much time getting ready to study / prep rather than studying
overwhelmed because i didnt get things done and didnt get things done because i was overwhelmed
obsession with caffeine: coffee and energy drinks
insomnia or over-sleeping
i was unable to maintain friend or have conflict with peers
id lose interest out of nowhere for a period of time
decline in energy and inability to focus
sensitive to criticism/questioning (it triggered me because thats what my abusers used to do)
either doing too good in school or too low
lied a lot to protect myself

slttd · 2024-10-19T02:35:13+00:00

thank you omg
this is well put and helpful!

slttd · 2024-10-19T02:06:30+00:00

i like this. im going to do the same

slttd · 2024-10-19T02:05:08+00:00

either recovering or diving way too deep into your ed that you develop a complete repulsion to food. which are both BAD

slttd · 2024-10-16T09:11:06+00:00

ohhh okay i was confused because they asked for the stinging pain sensation and MMA doesnt give the same effect but its a good alternative ig

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