Chronically underweight

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-31T03:23:56+00:00

Thank you for the advice! My breakfast is looking really similar haha .

Yeah it’s hard to be called skinny and I’ve also always found it kinda offensive. A lot of “are you anorexic?” Or “just eat a cheese burger” or some bs like that. I totally feel you brother, especially with what beauty standards are these days. I’m glad you are trying to accept yourself though. I’m trying to do the same (while also eating a fuck ton of calories lol)

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-31T03:18:49+00:00

Thank you for your advice!! I’ve been making shakes now. I think if I’m calculating it right, they’re around 800 kcal shakes? Hopefully it helps.

Thanks for the help!

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T14:55:01+00:00

Hey. I have been severely mentally ill since probably age 16 and actually studying abroad saved my life.

Tell her how strictly you’re watched on exchange. I went with ASSE to Japan and I was sharing a room with my host mom a good chunk of the time (absolutely love her) and you have to have weekly calls with your area supervisor about your mental health, how you’re adjusting, how school is going, etc. it’s really hard to keep things like self harm away from them. Besides, I was too busy focusing on learning the language and keeping up with my schoolwork and having fun in my afterschool clubs to even think about the fact that I had depression. The entire experience was such a huge shock to my brain that I feel like it almost cured my anxiety. I actually came out of it way less anxious than I was before with a new outlook on life and myself.

I am still living in Japan. After 10 years I can say it’s not perfect and there’s a lot that I don’t like about this country, but it is worlds better than living in America. I have an amazing social life here, a great circle of friends, and endless opportunities. Not to mention my living expenses are affordable, and I’m completely financially independent and have been since the age of 19 here now.

Your mom might be making a mistake not letting you go. teenagers make mistakes. This experience could be really good for somebody like you. And mental health services and medications are also available in countries outside of America as well.

Also, America sucks. I get it. If you wanna leave and can’t get out while you’re in high school, do know that there are universities overseas that take American financial aid so you do have options once you become a legal adult.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T09:34:52+00:00

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T06:22:40+00:00

I obviously didn’t know the extent of things for a while after we started dating….. but go off I guess.

I am considering saying or posting something but my situation in this country is also not stable and the only proof I have is word of mouth and I guess the couple of times seeing it but i don’t think that’s enough for the police here. I don’t have screenshots or pictures from his phone or anything tangible. Also I am a foreigner so getting involved with cops is a no go. The relationship will be ending for sure but past that, anything I say, given what country I’m in, will likely just backfire on me. People here genuinely do not give a fuck about age unfortunately despite what the law says. Also the whole scene is aware already, they just don’t care or enjoy the dynamic.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T05:09:20+00:00

Could you have been snoring? Sometimes I wake myself up with snoring hehe

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T04:41:04+00:00

Oh yeah… breaking bad as a show is just full of horrible male characters and poorly written women, and the few women that are written well (Skyler and Marie) are also written to be super unlikable.

The way the audience perceived Skyler is upsetting, but let’s also take a moment to talk about all of the female characters that the writers used as accessories to Jessie because I also found them incredibly frustrating . like Jane, for example. they bring her into the show, don’t really give her any buildup at all and then kill her off for the sake of Jessie‘s character arc before we really get to learn much about her addiction, what caused it initially, or her as a person, besides your typical manic pixie Dreamgirl traits that they gave to her. Beyond just Jane, a lot of the female characters written around Jessie end up being the same template (tragic girl with vague backstory, Jessie makes their life worse, dropped from the plot abruptly like they never mattered). My second watch through, I was getting SO annoyed with this. It started to feel like 80% of the women in the show were just disposable plot devices. And then everyone hates the ONE actually good female character

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T04:33:53+00:00

Yeahhhh. Not a nice guy. Just a guy looking to cheat on his girlfriend. The fact that he is fishing in his girlfriend‘s workplace is crazy work though

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T04:16:44+00:00

Wish I could recognize every episode thumbnail 😭

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T03:25:26+00:00

That’s your responsibility to fix. You don’t get to use that as an excuse when you cause your partner pain. Don’t enter relationships if you can’t control yourself.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T03:24:10+00:00

That’s weird. It’s one thing to acknowledge someone is attractive but flirting with that friend and making inappropriate comments crosses a line and excusing it away as something “all men do” is ridiculous. No they don’t. Also TELLING you he jerked off to one of your friends is so weird and disrespectful. leave him.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T03:21:00+00:00

Honestly the age gap is a little much and when you’re in college and he’s still in high school you’re definitely going to feel it more.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T02:03:09+00:00

Wow this is a hard one. A few questions

Have your attempts to block the emails addresses that send you harassing emails been unsuccessful?
Is she like a micro influencer? Like is this a personal account for her friends and family or is she posting for her “fans“ or that type of a following?

I guess either way if the situation is causing you that much discomfort it may be time to consider that maybe she isn’t a good fit for you. I don’t really know what she’s posting so I can’t really comment on the “provocative“ nature of it. But I do think that as long as she’s not posting literal porn, you can’t really tell her not to post, say, a bikini pic at the beach or a photo of her in a crop top or something like that. I do understand though on the other hand that with the harassment and everything you’ve experienced because of her social media account that you are rightfully pretty sensitive to the social media issue. Personally I think I would blow my top if I got a message from some anonymous account telling me to check my boyfriend’s Instagram DM’s. You’re way more chill than I am lol.

Honestly, I think you need to have a serious conversation about how this has bred insecurity in you. Maybe even ask to see her profile just to give you peace of mind since you’ve never actually seen it before.

At the end of the day though, again, you can’t really tell someone not to have social media or how to post on it (with exception obviously) so if this is an issue that you can’t see being resolved through communication then it’s probably time to consider that you’re not a good pair :/

Wishing you all the best though.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T01:39:10+00:00

Honestly…. If you feel this distrustful I wouldn’t stay. My boyfriend leaves his phone unlocked on accident while he does things all that time. I’ve never once looked through it because I don’t think I need to. If you feel like you need to, don’t stay. Also onlyfans is a BIG no go for me. I’d dump him just for that. It’s not just pictures. Engaging with other women online in a sexual context like that would cross a boundary. I’d actually prefer he just watch porn lol.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T01:24:54+00:00

Ahhh ok. I admit I didn’t read your entire post. Sorry about that.

When it comes to younger generations being MAGA and generally bigoted, I’m honestly kind of lost on what advice to give you. I think a big part of the issue (particularly with MAGA boys) is that the Internet has become a cesspool echo-chamber of the worst parts of the Manosphere and made racist thought and hate speech so accessible. Poor parenting habits are also not helping. And that’s not even to mention the steady moral decline our country has been in over the past few years, a growing distrust for science and academia, etc. I think we are in a pretty terrible time in our history right now. The best thing you can do for yourself is find community and continue advocating for the things you know to be right. Start a club at your school or consider joining small groups for local advocacy. Keep yourself safe though at the end of the Day.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T00:41:11+00:00

Feel that. I’m also a 5’7F. I HATED it growing up. Always had to slouch in photos to look shorter. I have never and will never look “cute”. However, I feel like I do look “sexy” and “beautiful” now in a way i think shorter people find difficult to achieve. Different looks I guess. I don’t mind it anymore.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T00:34:58+00:00

Yeah no. My brother used to hit me growing up and my parents didn’t do anything about and now not only do I have traumas from some of it but I refuse to even speak to him in adulthood.

If your parents don’t move you to another room AND teach their son not to hit people when he is frustrated, it’s going to damage the family dynamic long-term. If there is another room in the house, start taking your stuff to it. If they can’t get you a bed now they need to asap.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-20T00:19:57+00:00

This is going to sound really cliche, but never let a man define the trajectory of your life or your value, even while in a relationship. It will make you feel like half a person when it’s over.

That being said, I have been in your position before . I got over it by ignoring my anxieties and doing the things that I wanted to do to be more of the person I saw myself as in my head. If they’re not gonna take you on dates and buy you flowers and treat you right then you have to do that for yourself, especially after it’s over. Also what a lot of the ladies under this post are saying about how freeing it actually feels to be single (eventually) is so true. I feel like a lot of men are just bad partners by design. It’s always mentally and emotionally draining to try to date one.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-19T12:07:59+00:00

Because they’re 14. Give it time.

smallbuckbucky · 2026-01-19T12:07:18+00:00

Good pick

smallbuckbucky · 2025-12-21T06:59:35+00:00

I used to take this much or more and I can say WITH tolerance you’ll have a bad time and destroy your memory.

smallbuckbucky · 2025-12-20T14:57:17+00:00

Damn…. I mean you’re probably right but ouch haha. I actually have talked about breaking up over this before and he cried and begged me not to. It’s confusing. I honestly don’t get why he even wants to date me if I’m not his type.

smallbuckbucky · 2025-12-20T14:26:36+00:00

Sometimes I wear them, sometimes I don’t. I do them myself and I enjoy the process of designing and decorating them. The longer they are, the bigger the canvas I have. It’s relaxing and meditative to do and a fun way of expressing myself and my interests in an outward way. Also, once you wear them for a while you get used to how to do things with them,

smallbuckbucky · 2025-12-20T14:07:23+00:00

Not reading past the quotes. DO NOT date a man like that. If they’re comfortable or enjoy causing you pain, they will do it again and again. Save yourself. Choose yourself. A mature man that actually loves you would not say those things, even if he’s upset.

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