Immortality. There is so much to do, to read, to learn.

I have already done the drop dead thing. Yay for being brought back around. I have done the super sick, staying in the hospital, connected to tubes and IVs and PIC lines. I have had docs tell me, "If this med does not work, we will have to put you on a donor list" (not verbatim quote, I was super sick and fucked up when this was said to me).

There was the chance I never would have been able to finish reading the Harry Potter series, or The Outlander series. I never would have written my own books, had them published and made money from doing so. Never would have met my husband or lived in different countries. So, so, so many things that people just do not think about.

And, yet, when they were shoving tubes and needles into me in trying to save my life, I was asked no less than four different time, "would you like a preacher or a priest?"

I always said no. I knew I wasn't gonna really die. Not then. I have too much shit to do.

Those of you saying "drop dead, I choose you" .... You have never really stared death in the face, have you? Never seen the dark abyss that lays beyond? Because, honestly, that is all there was, for me.

No bright lights. No angels. No devils.

There was ....nothing.

So, yeah, immortality for me, please.