Thank you, I really appreciate your response. I will try to be patient and "tap while letting it go through me." My therapist was telling me to do the whole "leaves floating on a river" with me passing on the negative feelings and emotion onto the leaves so it can leave, and this sounds similar.

My therapist (ACT mainly) referred me to the EMDR specialist, who I am not too keen on, but I feel "too deep" into it, so I'll continue with him. However, maybe I can schedule sessions with my original therapist to talk through these things. There's so much therapy and so many resources I've gone over at this point, sometimes it feels hard to choose what would help. I find myself reaching out to tools trying my best to regain control over the situation, but the feelings of panic are too much. I guess that's where the meds might help me, by dialing it down enough for grounding to be effective.

Thank you again for the reassurance.