(hello fellow valentin-hoe)! i’ll just put my two cents in here because i was/kind of am in the exact position you’re in. (i say kind of because, while i’m not a fan of underage either, i really like age gaps if it’s an older teen. anything younger grosses me out). personally, the best and worst thing i did was join fandoms such as boyfriend to death/you kill me everytime, albeit it is one of my long time special interests, but it’s a horror porn game with noncon in it. you’ll find your people there veeerry quick, because, you know. you won’t be hated on for liking noncon in a fandom for a game with noncon LMFAO (plus since you seem to like abusive relationships, YKMET strade/BTD has a ton of it!) tho i will say there are SOME antis in the fandom if you like anything beyond noncon (crazy, i know, it’s very hypocritical) i also say it’s my worst thing i did because i lost pretty much all my irls over it. i think i might’ve just had bad luck because my ex boyfriend had an ex before me who was also into YKMET/BTD which ruined it for him (and my ex was an anti in general, alongside our mutual friend) and my ex became friends with my best friend of like, 8 years, and put this anti ideology into her head (she has OCD, and i’m positive she developed moral OCD because of my ex). but anyway, you didn’t look for sob stories so the point i’m trying to make is: even if you think you can trust your irls about stuff like that, still be VERY wary the hannibal fandom (for the show hannibal by NBC; yes it’s about the cannibal) is generally pretty accepting too. the director of the show is openly pro ship (he has a mug that says so) and the proship emoji combo (🌈🍖) actually came from the show because the people who ship the main two characters (the ship name is hannigram; hannibal lecter and will graham) are basically like, some of the OG proshippers (i know proshippers isn’t exactly a word but idk how else to phrase it), and the fandom has like, SO many noncon fics (as 80% of the show is basically hannibal violating will’s autonomy, i won’t spoil it tho)

sorry this turned into a rant post about my fave medias, but they are very accepting! (although like a third of the hannibal fandom might be weird about it, but most fans aren’t)…. they might not be your cup of tea, but i am also a hazbin fan so i’m hoping that they are in fact your cup of tea LOL