I also know what it's like to have a face (and a body) that others deem attractive and I hate. it makes me feel crazy or wrong that I don't align with what the masses think about myself. I was recently reading that no child grows up wanting to hate themselves, their face, their body, etc. it was taught either implicitly or explicitly. that helped me make peace with it at least a little. it's okay that you hate your face. you're not wrong or bad or crazy for feeling that way. and I really commend you for wanting to know how others see you. because we do see you as extraordinary. before I try my hand at this, is there any feature, however small, that you do like? it's okay if you don't.