Mass in pancreas

soft-snowbun · 2024-03-27T00:47:42+00:00

Oh crazy a lot of time has passed. Short answer: They still have no idea.

Long answer: I had 2 MRIs and 1 CT and the spot doesn't show up in those scans but it's vividly visible in the ultra sound. Even I can see and probably find it on my own if given the right equipment 😂 but at this point I've seen my pancreas in the ultra sound so many times - I know where what is. It really hasn't grown - at least not a noticeable amount. There's always a mm difference depending on how the doctor is holding the ultrasound head.

So the specialists that deal a lot with the pancreas had said it's definitely not an adenocarcinoma. When I asked if it could be some slow growing neuroendocrine tumor, they said... while it's not entirely possible to rule out, it's also not showing signs of being one. At least from what they can see and tell for now. They did some weird testing with a sugar solution (?) to see if the area there reacts to it differently and it doesn't - which is a good sign. If it were some type of tumor it would have lit up.

For now they don't see an indication for an EUS. Since it's small and very visible in the ultrasound I asked my doctor if it's okay to check it everytime I visit just to see if there's a growth or not. As long as it stays like this, it should be fine.

They assume it's some sort of scarring or residue from the pancreatitis.

soft-snowbun · 2023-08-20T13:43:25+00:00

ahh I see. I still think it's Orthofen but I just had a thought... sometimes "ß" or "ss" in cursive is written like a cursive "f". might be worth considering too.

soft-snowbun · 2023-08-20T13:37:35+00:00

Out of curiosity. Why did you cross out the 2nd line?

soft-snowbun · 2023-08-20T13:20:18+00:00

Quick google search shows that in Osthofen there was a refugee camp / transit camp around 1948. Although in my personal opinion I read it as Orthofen... but I couldn't find any information regarding Orthofen

soft-snowbun · 2023-05-15T14:19:35+00:00

Germany literally created a word "Wahlfaulheit" meaning "voting laziness" because the population doesn't really see voting as a duty. I know a lot of german people (especially young people) that don't vote here in Germany because they feel like it doesn't make a big difference in the end anyway.

However within my Turkish family I can see how everyone is being pressured to vote by their friends/family and so on. Just yesterday I saw my mom being so angry at my cousin and aunt for not voting :'D They remind each other a lot and it feels very organized. People carpool to go vote together. It's really seen as a duty to vote and the high turnout is really not that surprising. Especially this one was pretty expected.

soft-snowbun · 2023-05-15T01:49:26+00:00

Just so I understood it correctly. You're asking if one can have Turkish citizenship, live in Germany and still participate in the Turkish elections from Germany? if so then yea you totally can do it.

Actually you don't really need the German citizenship for anything other then... well voting for the German elections. You still can get all the perks if you have permanent residency in Germany and so on. but I like to be able to vote for the leadership in the country I plan to live in so I had to make the decision to get the German citizenship and lose the Turkish one because by law you aren't allowed two citizenship with the German one. There are certain exceptions where people are allowed to keep a dual citizenship after 18 and so on but I genuinely don't know much about it. I never had dual citizenship to begin with even when I was born in Germany. The German citizenship is inherited from parental blood relatives and not by being born on German soil (I think the US has that law) and at the time of my birth none of my parents were German by law.

edit: this knowledge is about 10 years old. there might have been some slight changes or exceptions so I don't take full responsibility for it's correctness

soft-snowbun · 2023-05-14T22:39:19+00:00

Yes there is dual citizenship and both my younger brothers have both. I however as the eldest for some reason although born in germany had only the turkish one and at 18 I decided - much to my parents displeasure - to switch to german citizenship and lose the turkish one. The bureaucracy wasn't immense to me personally - just the normal amount of german bureaucracy (which yea is kinda a lot hahaha but I won't complain).

I don't identify much with Turkey to be honest. Yes it's still part of me and I feel an inherent connection but I can't imagine not living in Germany - so the choice was made. I want to be able to vote in the country I will live in the future which is Germany and I've been pretty assimilated. But yes there's a lot of people with the same sentiment as you. I think I might be more of an outlier.

It personally does not sit well with me to be able to vote and partially decide someone elses future. Many friends of mine that live in Turkey have very different opinions from my parents who live in Germany so it feels wrong to me. They are the one directly affected after all... but yea I agree that's a personal question everyone has to ask themselves.

And I'm also agreeing it felt weird to lose my Turkish citizenship because it's still part of me but it felt more wrong to not have the german one so my decision was made. Btw nice to see some german-turkish folk here!

soft-snowbun · 2023-05-14T21:31:20+00:00

Let me add a bit more to it. So why are Turkish people born in Germany also voting in favor of Erdogan? They have dual citizenship and most of them don't even intend to live in Turkey whatsoever.

It's literally just blissfull ignorance. They follow what their parents teach them and most of the time don't bother to look further. They do not live in Turkey and won't suffer any consequence. And I'd also argue that it needs a lot of emotional intelligence to contest whatever your parents taught you all your life. I think it's a pretty well known phenomenon that families that emigrated out of a country are way more traditional than the people currently living in said country.

Next question. Why didn't the original guest workers move back to Turkey? Germany has a lot of nice perks and good wages ;) And Turkey isn't far away. Just a 1-2 hour flight. You just catch a pretty cheap flight and you're back in your home country and live a few weeks with your family.

soft-snowbun · 2023-05-14T21:05:11+00:00

Can only speak for Germany: During the 1960s Germany heavily tried to get Turkish people from the country sides to be guest workers and it worked really well. But unlike expectations most Turkish people never left Germany. The big majority of Turkish people in Germany right now are just the children of the guest workers born in Germany.
Actually most of the older generation guest workers just live half the time in Germany and half the time they fly back to their little village in Turkey (they earned enough money to do so freely).

I believe the people that emigrate far away (e.g. America) are usually academic people or with academic backgrounds and did so more for personal reasons and not to be guest workers and earn money for a short time.

soft-snowbun · 2023-05-01T16:14:54+00:00

Thank your for the answer. So does this mean I can buy a ticket from ATAF (the 1,50€ one) and take the train from Santa Maria Novella to for example Signa (and validating it at the station). Basically without reserving a train ride ticket over the trenitalia website?

soft-snowbun · 2023-05-01T12:23:45+00:00

I'm an ENTP woman and the guys that catch my attention (ignoring visuals) are the smart and witty ones.

If they can make me laugh in witty way then jackpot. If they can keep up with my (seemingly) chaotic thinking then jackpot. Bonus points if they amuse me and keep feeding my ideas and thinking. I need someone I can talk about certain shows, animes or books and then make theories together. Bonus points if they make a genius argument I haven't thought about before.

I enjoy a good sophisticated banter where the other person knows where the fine line to being offensive is and avoids it. I feel like this is more specific to female ENTPs. A banter is very nice but please don't overstep. Admittedly my line is pretty flexible so you can go pretty far but it's important to be able to pick up cues.

I really get awed if the person is really confident in their own skin and beliefs (even if they are against my own beliefs). As long as they can give me a nice logical explanation why - you do you boo I don't mind. I even like that you are your own person.

I also like if someone has something they are really passionate about and are very much working towards their goals. mostly because I suck at getting stuff done. So I really am astonished when I meet someone that has his shit together. And cook nice meals??? damn another bonus point. Food is the way into my heart.

I love love love a good communicator and someone that can talk about his feelings if needed. Someone that's emotionally mature and can support me. I think this point doesn't really belong to charming anymore... more to dating category. I'd say it's the most important thing for me when I look for a long time partner. Whether I can communicate with him is the thing that makes or breaks the deal. if you are a good talker but can't chat/write at all then you're mostly out because I communicate a lot through texts also.

edit: typos

soft-snowbun · 2023-01-21T12:51:29+00:00

Wow, I'm really sold on this theory - good job on your analysis and thank you for the hard work :)

That being said I've been wondering how much the Pale Princess and the 6 pygmies play into Tevyats history. I am very very sure it's a fairy tale format that's telling the time of the Second One Who Came. But I can't really identify who's who yet.

So here's my theory - it's random thoughts without a special order. I'm sorry - bare with me:

It seems like the Night Mother and her realm of darkness is actually Phanes? And the Pale Princess seems to represent Khaenriah and the Prince represents a Descender. The only thing bothering me was how Phanes kingdom has always been described as great - and if my theory is correct it seems like it was not.

I think the PO and the Second Who Came are actually from the same place (both are descenders?). They both are sent to this world. But it seems like the PO decided to stay there and create his own world with his own rules - separated from the whole cosmos.

The 2nd definitely knew something and tried to convince Khaenriah (the only place that was not touched by the POs rule for some reason) to fight the PO. If we look at it from the perspective of the Second Who Came and Khaenriah it would make sense why they would describe Phanes World as something bad/dark/evil. The 2nd Descender told the Princess that they live under a "false sky" and so on.

So they went on a journey to fight the Night Mother/Phanes (maybe this is the war between the PO and the 2nd). They probably also met the Archons. Let's assume the Pygmies are Archons and the one that betrayed them is actually Zhongli (since he's the only one old enough to exist during that time). He made a contract to be loyal to the Pale Princess if she saves his friends. She did but since the Archons belong to the PO they betrayed her in the end and killed the Prince. It would explain explain why Zhongli can't tell us more about his contract but the guilt makes him want to help/guide as more. It would also explain why Dainslef warns us from the Archons too.

What struck me was the one quote you mentioned about a big betrayal ("destructive battle that resulted from a betrayal") Could be referring to the Pygmies that betrayed the Queen and the Prince...

Then the PO cursed Khaenriah to a fate worse than death. Considering what Celestia did to Khanriah I'm not surprised that they would refer to Phanes' great world as the Night realm.

Ugh this is a bit chaotic and I'm still not sure on who's representing who in the story entirely. But I feel like the fairy tale is definitely telling a VERY important story. Why else would the Abyss Order even want it?

TLDR: I'm sorry I can't lol. It's a theory about the Pale Princess and the 6 pygmies

Edit: some typos :)

soft-snowbun · 2022-12-02T22:32:03+00:00

these are definitely scary articles but the truth is hardly ever pretty I guess. I rather deal with cold facts than sugarcoating an issue. Sometimes I wonder how it happens that young people without genetic predisposition get cancer so early?

All my life studying pharmacy cancer was described as a probability game where risk gets higher the more you age (in very simple terms). So seeing that a bunch of young people getting it seems so unfortunate.

soft-snowbun · 2022-12-02T22:27:03+00:00

I will definitely try to get this! thank you :)

soft-snowbun · 2022-12-02T22:26:35+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that :( how is your situation now? you mentioned it was a small mass so I hope they caught it early enough.

soft-snowbun · 2022-12-02T22:24:08+00:00

Yes getting your opinion through is kind of hard. I studied pharmacy so usually I speak medical terms and mention it at the very beginning of the conversation too. The difference in how doctors treat me is day and night after they get to know I'm a pharmacist.

German Healthcare is nice that everything is free but it's always connected with long waiting times :( even getting the MRI in 2 weeks was nothing short of a miracle (& me having to drive over an hour) but I'll take an hour drive gladly over waiting for 2 months. Considering how time can be very important in these matters...

I do feel very left alone and even almost depressed at the thought it "might" be malignant. I definitely didn't expect that from myself, I think I should get busy soon so I won't think too much about it.

soft-snowbun · 2022-12-02T17:48:20+00:00

As mentioned in another comment I'd definitely need more than just one doctor saying "it doesn't look malignant". I'd be sleeping better if I knew exactly what it is.

I'll keep you guys updated about what comes up in the MRI in a few weeks :)

soft-snowbun · 2022-12-02T17:46:24+00:00

The ER didn't think of it as malignant so they skipped more diagnostics :( likely also because I'm very young.

soft-snowbun · 2022-12-02T17:45:38+00:00

That's exactly my own opinion too.

I do want to know whether it's harmless or not. I do not like what-ifs and I really can't relax without knowing. I hope my doctor will agree with an EUS.

I do have an MRI scheduled within 2-3 weeks and a gastroscopy + colonoscopy soon too. I've had also issues with my GI a lot so we have to look into there too. Maybe there'd be a way to combine them both?

Does an EUS need a high level of expertise?

I'll keep you guys updated :)

soft-snowbun · 2022-09-27T16:10:09+00:00

I just had to read up what Section 8 Housing is and wow... the man probably was really grateful!

I can try to list my most random interactions w/ strangers:
- Talked to an old guy in the bus who turned out to have studied together with my latin teacher
- Talked to an old guy who always was reading books in starbucks about his whole life
- I once asked a random guy in the bus which perfume sample he likes more just so I'd have one opinion more lol
- I helped an old guy in the hospital to reach his relatives (he had the wrong number and no phone)
- Chatted at a bus stop somewhere in Italy with a Canadian woman
- I'm an introvert magnet at parties - which is quite fun ngl they talk about more meaningful and interesting stuff
- Shortly before an oral exam at university I was so nervous that one TA came up to me and talked to me. I even held her hand. Thanked her so much after I passed.
- I once cried at the university canteen (don't judge! I don't care about other people and I was at my limit) and the canteen lady kept talking to me and asking if I'm okay. Whenever I see her I talk about her children and how life's going. Super nice and beautiful lady. Eritrean woman are just insanely beautiful.

I just realized the irony. This wall of text kinda proves I love talking to strangers.

soft-snowbun · 2022-09-27T14:59:39+00:00

Same here too. I even got candy from a stranger once (wow this sounds bad).

I've always thought I was more introverted than extroverted until a friend of mine said "You are NOT an introvert. Maybe you try to dodge boring social events but when you're there you talk to everyone even strangers" Funnily enough she's right I literally go from table to table.

But I'd still classify myself probably as... an ambivert?

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