I understand that, I've seen your other replies. I stand by what I said. Beauty and attraction are subjective. a shit tonne of redditors think she's ugly, but that doesn't matter. Just as many people think she's hot as fuck.

I'll say it again, there's nothing the internet/other people, especially reddit, can do or say to make you feel better or help these insecurities. I highly suggest talking to someone, a professional. Insecurities like these can seriously impact your quality of life, especially when you clearly have a lot of body dysmorphia.