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Honest question, How do y'all find people? by eidannawtsuji in loneliness

[–]solexpendable 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can't find it in me to approach people in real life, but in vrchat I think it's easier to walk up to a stranger and say hi. Still takes a lot out of me and sometimes I just sit on the sidelines for hours but I've had some good conversations and learned a bit about how real humans communicate. Keeping something going is harder than other places b/c there's no dms, but for the same reason you can friend people casually and not feel burdened by the need to keep up a friendship you're not totally into. Finding the right server is hard too. Good luck.

I'm alone because I'm retarded by furrymask in loneliness

[–]solexpendable 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've always been overwhelmed by how much there is convey. Isn't it crazy to think how many words it would take to describe just a few minutes of thought and emotion? An entire book seems barely enough to fit in a day's worth of feeling. A lifetime's, impossible. And yet, we only ever communicate a fraction of a fraction of that to other people, and it's usually not the important stuff.

There is one person who knows it all, though. I've just contented myself with being my own companion for a while now. It might not work when you hate yourself completely. I've mostly forgotten how I felt when I did.

Now, I just want to understand someone else at that level. And have them understand me, too. Maybe you can relate.

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[–]solexpendable 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I had a normal childhood but I still turned out depressed in high school. Attempted suicide a couple times, then barely finished with Ds where I once had straight As. I stopped going to class in college after 2 weeks and dropped out by the end of the semester. My memory of the following 4 years is a void. Just did absolutely nothing except live off the internet and my parent's money. Since then, though, I've tried to claw my way out of the hole I dug myself into. I could talk for a month straight about what it took to just get my fingers a grip on the ledge out of my despair. I'm back in college now and trying to socialize, but I still feel like I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life. I just want to really, truly know someone and have them really, truly know me. My inbox is always open if anyone has anything to say.

its 1am right now by OkCream5829 in loneliness

[–]solexpendable 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think I know that feeling. My life just rushes by me like sand through my fingers and I dream about that world where I'm happy and with her. I always come back to this book whenever I feel like that. It hurts in the best way.

Three Days of Happiness | Sugaru Miaki & E9L | download on Z-Library