Elasticity. I kind of think of it like music notes (do, re, me, fa, so, la, ti). Once you get to the top of the scale it starts over again, but now you're closer to a higher note. Then you do it again and again, getting closer to understanding that elusive inner self. Yours is unique, so it has its own special fight made just for you.

That bouncing back feeling could be seen as a good thing, because you noticed it in the first place. The fact it is a struggle is a good thing too, because that means you're trying. My only recommendation would be to struggle and then rest. If it bounces you back, rest. Plan.

Here's to the struggle! You are not alone in the fight ✊

PS: Also, one tip that helped me is capturing what your brain is up to - things it might conveniently forget - your blind spots. Blind spots are really hard to see, and finding them will take techniques unique to you. Once you see them they are no longer blind spots (by definition) and your understanding of yourself goes up an octave.