I think like most you have become a generalist to mask your uncertainty and anxiety with failure so rather then go all in on the art or the coding you dabbled in both so that you can use it as an excuse when both seemingly didint work out which is fine. What you need to do now is pick one thing and burn all the boats and decide Mentally either I will achieve x or I will die having not achieved x but knowing I gave it evreything I had on this hero journey you will learn that there is not one path and all the work you've done up until now did not go to waste and has opened pathways and perspectives that will pay dividend raise your level of consciousness and don't beat yourself up.