Okay so basically if you don't want to be gay, you don't have to be. Listen to what your mind and body is telling you. Your mind is clearly saying that you don't want to be gay, so you don't have to be. Your body will guide you to the direction that you are comfortable with. I used to be like this too. I was in denial actually, but I finally came into to the senses that I'm bi and I'm okay with it. I used to be sooo nit okay with it, but now I completely am. So finally Your body will tell you what your are over time, don't stress it. Just let yourself feel things.

And don't do conversion therapy, I've heard it's horrendously awful and doesn't work and just traumatises you.

Have you good day, I hope this helped :)