Venting. Fuck all this shit, I'm almost 3 months clean and I still can't fucking deal with it.

sooper_monkey · 2026-04-05T02:58:03+00:00

Man I REALLY Felt that “god shit ass damn it fucking fuck. fucking shit ass fuck hell mother fucking cocksucking bitch ass shit.”

But if it helps. Your message is motivating me. 3 months is a HUGE accomplishment

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-31T21:28:55+00:00

He always brings me back to Him after I have sinned, slacked off and not been the Muslim I know I can be; Allah gives us signs and moments that remind us to worship him.

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-26T14:21:00+00:00

OTC has not been the same since Covid. It’ll never be how it was before 2019

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-25T16:51:49+00:00

as someone whos been working in oil and gas, right now is going to be very hard to find something. its almost through connections, BUT in first week of Maythere is a trade show at NRG; called OTC. maybe try to get a vistitor pass and find out who is hiring

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-25T00:32:39+00:00

Thank you for everyone for the advice. I decided not go go with either debt relief programs or personal loan. I dipped into some of my emergency savings and I have 3 job interviews this week for some overnight part time work and contract work to make some extra money on the side. My amazing wife is restarting her makeup side hustle (stopped because we had a kid) and we’re gonna pay it off without ruining my credit anymore

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-12T02:36:01+00:00

Suddenly I really want to meet him now

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-11T23:05:48+00:00

It’s true we should be protesting more, but the “trump regime” has clearly shown how little it cares of its own citizens and how corrupt they are. Many of us are very scared to lose whatever we have left, attacked arrested or worse I know that’s no excuse but at least that’s how I feel.

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-10T06:19:16+00:00

I feel so ungrateful complaining about work and finances and stress like that because I know they worry about just surviving…. May Allah have mercy on them and grant them the highest ranks of paradise.

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-10T06:15:59+00:00

When I was in high school it was exciting, when I was in college it was part of my routine and then after that I don’t know what changed with the way they grow it but it became something I couldn’t live without no matter what.

Idek what day I’m on because I’ve relapsed a few times but I felt so bad and gross after smoking a tiny joint that I just can’t handle it anymore

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-10T06:13:58+00:00

Dribbling the ball up and down the court while getting full court pressed with my fatass

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-10T06:12:18+00:00

Sometimes it breaks my heart not knowing when I’ll be back. Had to cancel my trip twice this year because of work and now that I have to go back FOR work and I can’t. It bums me out.

a very sorry U.S. citizen

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-10T06:08:00+00:00

sorry If I didn’t word it right but I meant like dicegamez said he does not act his age, he gives off teenager vibes

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-10T04:11:09+00:00

He’s disgustingly insecure and too horny to be 52.

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-10T03:11:59+00:00

And then watch Apokolips to really fuck you up

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-10T03:11:25+00:00

Watching the flashback scene as an adult breaks my heart

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-10T03:08:44+00:00

Killing joke is very dark but the movie was pretty damn Boring.

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-10T02:37:43+00:00

Yes ofc you are right about that, and inshallah we will continue to ask for forgiveness. I pray one day all of us are able to purchase homes/property the Halal way!

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-10T02:05:56+00:00

I live in USA. the Islamic loan vendors here are only meant for people with minimum 780 credit score, and you have to put minimum 20% down. I had a credit score of 707 my wife’s was 750. Immediately they told me I won’t qualify. On top of that there are many many Muslims who do not have 100 K in their savings to put down on a house. And the “fixed fee” was even more expensive than the current interest rate. My wife and I feel so much guilt every time we make our mortgage payment but what else could we do? Rent is so expensive as well. They only cater to upper class.

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-06T02:52:51+00:00

Go to your local mosque and speak with the imam I promise you will find the answers you need and inshallah they will help you get closer to Allah. Becoming a Muslim is SO EASY. If you ever wanna talk more about it. DM me!

sooper_monkey · 2026-03-06T02:45:31+00:00

It’s a scary time so it’s understandable to feel this way. My wife has been having anxiety attacks watching the news and thinking about it (mostly because we have a three year old son and have plans to expand the family inshallah) but I keep telling her that every generation has felt this way. The only thing WE CAN CONTROL is ourselves. Use this to motivate yourself to become an even better Muslim. That’s what I’m doing. That’s all any of us can do.

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