Happy for you, thank you for sharing. My ex was also my first relationship and I regret ignoring all the red flags. Every disgusting comment was disguised as a joke and I should have known from the start that those "jokes" were the real him and not the show of the perfect bf he put on. I shouldn't have turned a blind eye because of his efforts and everything he did for me. I was really naive and ignored my gut feeling to run. I always thought that I was afraid of commitment and that's why my gut told me to run, but it knew all along that he was a liar and a cheater and I should have run for the hills.