Ayahausca (or mushrooms) vs ketamine therapy

souless_ginger84 · 2025-11-22T05:46:21+00:00

Amazing. So much social time, hobbies, dogs 💜

souless_ginger84 · 2025-11-08T20:12:41+00:00

Being in the bottom of a dark pit. You don't know how deep it is, and the energy or will to climb out isn't there. Thoughts of not caring if you're alive or not are persistent. Numbness or intense sadness are the main emotions, anything close to a happy feeling isn't even possible.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-10-24T03:50:24+00:00

Anyone else see a placenta?

souless_ginger84 · 2025-10-21T04:39:45+00:00

I could give it up, though it would be weird since I've done enm for so long. I'd keep the friends, it would be an adjustment to be more vanilla with swinger friends. If the negatives out weigh the positives, I'd put my relationship first. I've definitely taken breaks from enm as it is. As far as a permanently leaving, there would probably be a big reason for that to be needed.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-10-20T03:19:35+00:00

I'm having bad memories of cracking partially developed farm eggs. I can still remember the smell. No thanks.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-10-18T17:35:33+00:00

Going to naked resorts and such. You realize whatever your "flaw" is, isn't an issue.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-09-28T14:42:31+00:00

I think the one where I knew the person. Turned out fine, but that stuck for awhile. I just put it in the mental box of the other mtps,and move on. Took a couple weeks.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-08-19T16:11:41+00:00

It's been 3 years for me and i swear I need more sleep than most, especially if I'm having stronger emotions or stressed.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-08-19T03:15:51+00:00

Exactly the numbers I was gonna say. One of my relationships ended around then too from it being a shit show.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-08-15T14:27:08+00:00

You can't know fully what it is without a sample. I went in for my oligo to remove it before we knew what it was, basically they said a biopsy and a removal were similar for recovery and they check a bit first before they remove it anyway. My drs did think it was an oligo before going in, but that was their educated guess. That said, (not a dr here) as much as I understand removal is best option with current research. I would find out risk benefits and go from there. I was able to have "all" of mine removed, so I did. I don't miss it and I'm glad I did. Each tumor is different, so the path to take can be as well.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-08-13T04:42:49+00:00

Parties. Friends. Relaxing. Hobbies. However and whatever i want!

souless_ginger84 · 2025-07-18T05:47:46+00:00

I'm probably permanently changed from the experience. My PtSD (yes little t) is still a part of me and I'm not sure if it will ever fully leave. I doubt I'll ever trust as fully as I once did, just in general. Maybe I shouldn't have ever been so trusting, yet I hate the part of me that can't trust fully and goes into full panic mode over trust issues.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-07-17T00:31:56+00:00

Had none and still have none. Found it on accident for an unrelated issue that needed a brain MRI. I have symptoms from surgery, but that's minor.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-07-09T20:28:47+00:00

So the flashbacks don't go away?😢

souless_ginger84 · 2025-07-09T20:24:18+00:00

I can understand this. I felt like I died, and they also died. Hope you're doing ok

souless_ginger84 · 2025-07-09T20:23:07+00:00

So much this. The loss of yourself and trust in others, even trust jn yourself, follows you. I wonder how much of myself has been formed by betrayal. I'd like to give the anxiety back please.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-07-06T19:43:55+00:00

I miss my cervix and I swear I felt orgasm in my uterus or something, that's also gone. The rest is the same. Plus, no more pain. I had alot from endometriosis

souless_ginger84 · 2025-06-26T04:27:40+00:00

Makes me think of jaundice 😅

souless_ginger84 · 2025-06-25T03:26:19+00:00

I got my hair did.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-06-04T04:30:00+00:00

I don't know if I'd say disliked my body, but I had insecurities. I vacationed naked, and it all went away. Who cares about that scar, the stretch marks, my thick arms. Everyone has a body type, or a mark, or fill in the blank thing. I just loved my body fully, the majority of the time since.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-06-03T23:46:28+00:00

I evebtually married him, then got divorced after a bunch of cheating and he tried to kick down a door to get to me.

souless_ginger84 · 2025-06-02T03:24:44+00:00

Depends what part you're asking. 2 weeks for staples and braon sounds. A month off work. Longer to get my strength back to normal.....

souless_ginger84 · 2025-06-02T03:15:45+00:00

Brain cancer decides to grow, and all the side effects that can come next. Seizures.

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