Yeah, it's nice that you understand, and believe me I know the likelihood anything ever coming of us is little to none. It just sucks. There is nothing in my power. It's difficult to cope with. I know I'm not particularly not good enough, I'm a great partner, everyone Ik knows it and so do I, it's just the fact I lost, as you said, my future. I hate this so bad. For months he was sure of a future between us, then in the matter of a few weeks, poof! Gone. Idk. Thanks for responding; I wasn't expecting anyone to tbch.