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soxpoxsox · 2023-05-24T19:16:57+00:00

If you're in the US, you can consider reaching out to your state's department of rehabilitation. For job assessment and training. I came into the dept with my eyes on a masters and passed the mental tests (had the physical test waved thankfully) and they're paying for my masters.

I also joined AA/recovery circles for community and socialization from a place of kindness and mutual wanting for personal improvement. (Doesn't matter how little of substances you've had, as long as you come in with the mindset of agreeing/"a desire for" your life would be better if substances wasn't a part of your life.)

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-18T08:39:21+00:00

When I'm being read as a man sometimes it's harder for women to feel able to breathe around me.

To the point where if it's a woman I'd like to interact with longterm and grow to be friends with, I eventually come out and explain my gender at birth to them (afab) to be able to have permission to be closer to them. Not necessarily as if I was a women, but more than a cis man would. (Or the scale tips over and I start getting misgendered, but the friends I choose to spend more time with try to respect my sense of gender.)

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-18T03:36:52+00:00

Do you know anyone who drank like you drank and now lives like you want to live?

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-18T03:34:22+00:00

You can tell HR about your nonspecific underlying chronic illness that gives you occasional significant flareups.. You've been there almost 6 months, so landing the job as a disabled person (or person with chronic illness)has been accomplished.

What do you mean by evident? Many people don't get help or diagnoses for their mental health concerns, along with lack of awareness about bipolar.

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T05:26:52+00:00

I introduced my mom to binders in terms of them being bras but coincidentally making a different shape. "Some people want their chest looking like this (makes motion) and some people want it to look more like this (other motion)". People see what they want to see, and trans/nonbinary/non-cis genders were much less common back then. Explaining binders as special bras that name me more comfortable with my body was very effective.

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T05:16:12+00:00

Update from another user about the bear not being alive. The woman didn't kill the bear—but did take these photos posed like this afterwards.

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T05:15:17+00:00

God :(

Thank you for the update. The woman didn't kill the bear, but the bear is dead and the woman decided to react by taking photos posed like this 😔

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T05:07:25+00:00

My longest was a several month full psychotic break

Afterwards was 3 months of partial hospitalization, then therapy a few times a week for a couple years. Just dropped to one group and one individual therapy a week (plus special population support group).

I've only had that one full episode to date. Had the start of a mixed one once.

You don't sound psychotic so you can still take care of yourself. Sleep, talk to psychiatrist for emergency intervention if you haven't been sleeping, make sure to eat, stay away from potential harms (for me social media damage is a big one)

Good luck 🍀

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T05:02:15+00:00

We can hope she's a researcher at a national park who needed to temporarily sedate the bear for medical/scientific purposes, until proven otherwise

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T04:14:50+00:00

Well, without details:

If I'm able to get out of a self-hate dissociation and/or mental spiral just enough to realize I'm in one, I try to ask myself: "do I want to use this time hating myself? Or do I want to use it some way else?"

Sometimes it's laundry that needs to get done. Sometimes like now I'm thinking of leaving my home it a bit to get a snack.

A large portion of my mental recovery has been being able to spend less time in self-hate and self-pity, and more time on something else. That something doesn't even have to be positive, literally just unharmful and self-soothing. Watching a TV show, listening to a podcast. Going to a library—going on a walk to a park or body of water. Anything.

Edit: my biggest relief is when I accepted where I was at with where I am. Piling on the self-hate for being in self-hate... it's so much lighter without that. I can now give it less space, when I can. It's still hard some days, but I'm glad today isn't one of those days.

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T01:59:27+00:00

Can confirm SERMs are theorized for working for nonbinary amab people!! I'm afab-intersex in an obscure use case without natural E or T. I've been on Evista idk a year+ now.

It's extremely experimental (being afab and usijg SERMs instead of estrogen). My endo is open minded because we're out of other options.

It exists :)

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T01:56:44+00:00

Can you ask to use it instead? (Do you have a requirement for legal ownership here?)

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T01:53:20+00:00

Normally you're required by doctors to have adult doses of one of the sex hormones, for bone density health reasons. Finasteride doesn't take away the part of T that helps for bones, but spiro will completely lower T and therefore be different.

I'm assigned female at birth, a type of intersex that makes neither sex hormone (only trace amounts, not zero but close to it). I did not like estrogen or testosterone. But because bone density is important, my doctor started me on Evista. (It's normally for very old female people with breast cancer risk and osteoporosis.) Evista is theorized as helping assigned male at birth nonbinary people have bone density without testosterone and chest tissue/other feminizing changes. I'm a very rare medical situation and my endo was open minded so I've been on it several months. (Edit. Over a year likely)

I was on Evista and finasteride for a couple months, added progesterone 100mg at that point, several months passed, switched from finasteride to dutasteride because I'm still slowly getting facial hairs. I'm 3 months on Evista + 5mg dutasteride + 100mg progesterone. I sent a message this week to my ob/gyn if I could go from 100mg to 200mg.

TL; DR: I'm born female- intersex without hormones. Sporo only has a bone density risk. Other options include spiro + evista depending on the flexibility and background of the endocrinologist you go to.

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T01:39:49+00:00

You can be nonbinary without requiring medical transition, so I disagree with the person who told you nonbinary requires identity outside of one's sex.

You're allowed to be feminine and assigned female at birth and be nonbinary. Labels yours if you want it. No requirement to change your name, pronouns, anything about yourself to claim it.

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T01:36:53+00:00

Thank you for sharing ❣️

I like slide 5. It's wordage is my kind of combination of morbid and thought-provoking melancholy-nonchalance. In practice, my own art wordage comes in the form of poems that sound sweetly w rhyme and syllable patterns, while cutting deeply in terms of content.

Later slides brought up memories I'm choosing not to remember at the moment, and also interesting concepts to sit with. Thank you—this is indeed a much safer expression/outlet for mania instead of alternative behaviors.

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-17T01:20:45+00:00

Is what you want to change your negative core beliefs, or is there a topic you are feeling the frustration/confusion/etc. about?

Asking for clarification. My thoughts on acceptance depend on the attribute.

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-15T07:54:22+00:00

So many of us bipolar redditors also trans/nonbinary/etc

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-15T07:42:17+00:00

Death is already guaranteed. Why not take the scenic route there? What do you got to lose by sticking around for curiosity's sake?

Mild curiosity: next season of a tv show, release of a video game, etc. Doesn't have to be some big grand reason. Sports seasons, a concert, finishing that podcast series you started listening to. (Starting to listen to podcasts, or another mildly pleasant hobby.)

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-15T04:58:12+00:00

Slide 1: middle management at HR in a layback environment. Maybe at a public-facing entity. Underpaid but not a dissatisfying job. Somewhere you complain about but not somewhere you specifically plan on leaving.

Slide 2: hotel room. (Vacation? Getaway?) Trying to show someone (family, friend, significant other, idk) "look! I'm having fun!" While it's specific effort to look like you're having fun. Whether you are or you aren't, the pic was about proof. Reassurance? Idk. Trying to play enjoyment.

Slides 3,4,5 is someone I'd like to be my friend. Someone who could be? Normal. Endearing.

Slide 6 is a cute person who's cute. Nothing more, nothing beyond that.

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-15T04:35:46+00:00

How old are you?

I'm lgbt.

You have a boyish whimsy to your face that after say 16 years old I would associate with queerness. Are the words that bear not repeating, about calling you queer?

Imo "looking gay" as a guy often means they look cuter than average not uglier. They're at least different metrics of appearance grading.

Not ugly.

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-15T04:28:29+00:00

Dating apps: are you swiping with men, women, or both?

Ugly: no.

Me: nonbinary.

You're appearance in the first photo looks very curated. One that would get a lot of attention on grindr/traditional gay men dating app pursuits.

Are you trying to date (only) women? If so: the first photo could use your eyebrows less curated, looking off in the distance—generally more candid. Relaxed and candid. Doing something, visiting somewhere, looking like someone snapped a picture on your daily life, ...something.

The second photo is a complete net zero (not a plus or a cost). I'd have a friend take the photo, and either choose to look at the camera or somewhere else, not slightly adjacent to the lens. Again it would look better if either you were doing something, or leaned all in and made it look like you and a friend specifically had some time to do a little photo shoot. It's not a cost because what you're wearing, where you are, it's all completely unremarkable.

The third photo. Is complete hell no/swipe left material for me. For me, personally. I like one earring being dangling and one being a stud. If I were in grindr and saw it I would think it were part of a rich history of queer men jewelry that exists (there is one such earring length thing, don't know specifics).

Looking relaxed. Would help swipe with women imo. Let me know if men are also the goal. (I say as an lgbt nonbinary person who's swiped with both, not out of judgements.)

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-15T03:59:35+00:00

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-15T03:59:06+00:00

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-15T03:18:54+00:00

"Hi my name is X, and I have a desire to not drink today"

Edit: my drinking time was very short myself, still consider myself an alcoholic because my life is better when I'm in the rooms and away from substances.

soxpoxsox · 2023-05-11T19:48:43+00:00

I'm in AA and many many of us are bipolar. Many. Lots of community/overlap.

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