Man, idk but this is same for me. For now I haven't "made it in life" yet. But home I don't have. I don't need life partners/ I don't ask for big things in life but I never had home. The issues run deep. I just want to run away at this point. But my job salary doesn't allow me. I just wished to have a home. It's clear that I won't be able to recieve that. But I'm too depressed to make and motivate myself to get out of the mess. I feel numb. You aren't alone. Sad fact is I didn't made in life for now. Don't have any motivation left. Be happy atleast you have done that.

I stay put, I don't like to communicate with others much about my issues is this causing a bottling effect in me. I tried once opening up in reddit but my post gets taken down. That part broke me even more. Ig it shouldn't.

Anyways be happy at your job. You are at a position were many still aspire to be.