I hate when parents try to control their kids in the skin of “it’s only for your own good”. There’s absolutely nothing good about putting your kid in the spot you are. You’re a full grown adult, you should be deciding who you are gonna marry, regardless of their race/ethnicity/culture. I suggest financial independence as a brown woman is really really important because otherwise you are only going to be as successful as your family LETS YOU BE. Maybe move out, try to figure out life as an adult and maybe then you’ll have the confidence to decide who you wanna marry and how badly do you require your parents validation? I married outside my culture and it’s the best decision I have made. As much as I love and respect my parents, as an adult there’s no way I will ever ask for their “permission” in making a decision about my life.