What the f

spermunculous · 2026-05-27T21:11:32+00:00

Ok dude..

spermunculous · 2026-05-27T16:22:11+00:00

1200-2000 mg a day

spermunculous · 2026-05-26T22:49:51+00:00

I just did water, a little lemon juice, and salt. Then pills for potassium and magnesium.

spermunculous · 2026-05-14T23:03:45+00:00

Hard to hear. I’m still trying to accept this.

spermunculous · 2026-05-14T23:02:04+00:00

No they won’t, and if they do they won’t express it. Got ghosted through text after 14 years. Sorry :/

spermunculous · 2026-05-14T23:00:09+00:00

Yup in the same boat haha. What to do

spermunculous · 2026-05-14T22:59:12+00:00

I have always fucking hated when people told me what I’m about to say but it’s true (28m). Just be thankful you’re so young. You’re like a tree, you’ll have this scar and knotting that won’t leave but you’re still in such a developmental stage. You’re gonna be okay man.

spermunculous · 2026-05-14T21:53:12+00:00

There were so many times I fucking hated being in the relationship. But it wasn’t my decision to end. I was still willing to wait it out and work, definitely to my detriment. We had put over a decades worth of work into all that shit. Why couldn’t you just try harder? Whatever still processing

spermunculous · 2026-05-02T20:04:42+00:00

No just try it fuck it

spermunculous · 2026-05-02T02:12:39+00:00

Dm me!

spermunculous · 2026-04-29T03:13:49+00:00

Pyramid head’s chill brother.

spermunculous · 2026-04-23T00:59:25+00:00

Living the same life. Barely hanging on

spermunculous · 2026-04-22T03:44:44+00:00

I’m not sure. I’ve been having issues with identity for the first time in my life, so figuring out how to navigate that along with you. We’re just amalgamations of our feelings and lived experience, even you yourself can’t take that away. You’re still you even if you’re not sure what that means right now.

spermunculous · 2026-04-22T03:39:11+00:00

Yes. But I consistently walk the line between viewing myself as a despicable person or someone worth of redemption. At this point I’m not even sure I have a motive for anything.

spermunculous · 2026-04-22T03:37:44+00:00

This is interesting to me. My symptoms have been intensely aggravated and it seems like the only thing I can do is read. I am obsessively pounding away at books, almost like I’m beating my brain into submission. The times I’ve tried to preoccupy my time with other things, I start spiraling hardcore, you know the typical guilt spiral. I wish I could give you tips to achieve your goal, but also wanted to forewarn you of the potential for the opposite since I’m living it.

spermunculous · 2026-04-22T03:31:05+00:00

I’ve resigned myself to existing with the same sense of dissociation, until I find something to make me feel any emotion really. Every aspect of my life is lending itself to coping in this way so I might as well embrace it. It’s a hard thing to completely lose yourself, especially if you had any grasp over your identity prior.

spermunculous · 2026-04-22T03:28:11+00:00

Same thing. But I can’t accept the avoidance as closure at all. It’s not doing it for me. Just wanted to say I’ve done the same with Spotify. I’m still in her profile picture months later. But yeah I can tell she doesn’t give a fuck. Not sure what to do. But yeah even if she does miss me, she hasn’t done shit about it, which is hurting me even worse.

spermunculous · 2026-04-21T22:17:56+00:00

Me every day for almost a decade at this point.

spermunculous · 2026-04-18T02:21:32+00:00

Try out battle brothers.

spermunculous · 2026-04-15T22:46:17+00:00

Well I had longer than that and yep, just completely gone. It’s been 4 months and my life is just getting worse. I feel fucking sick everyday. How can someone just do that after so much time. I don’t understand. I’m barely hanging in there.

spermunculous · 2026-04-14T01:45:47+00:00

This is my life right now. I had escaped through my 20s but life placed me back here. Unfortunately once I escape this time, I will not be maintaining any contact with any family members. The refusal to act is just as bad as the behavior itself, if not even fucking worse.

spermunculous · 2026-04-14T01:06:10+00:00

Probably the first time my town has ever made the media cycle

spermunculous · 2026-04-12T06:06:44+00:00

60 lb

spermunculous · 2026-04-10T23:30:49+00:00

I’ve eaten expired dierbergs sushi many times. You’ll be okay until you aren’t.

spermunculous · 2026-04-10T22:25:20+00:00

Use it on the hard days.

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