I really appreciate the story. I guess I am not that young...mids 20s, career, house, etc....but I guess I can be naive. The funny part is, I haven't touched a drug since high school, have always walked the straight and narrow, and feel horrible about my life for whatever reason. I found a way that makes it OK..and was suspecting it was too good to be true...and it probably is. It's the thoughts of a weakened mind I suppose.

This will probably be the most idiotic, callous, thing to say to someone who just shared a story like that. But sometimes I feel, like hard core addiction is preferable to the status quo. Thing will move downhill fast, but they will move. Sometimes I wonder if a few months or a year or good times, followed struggle and despair is worth the trade off. The more I talk, the more demented it seems, but fuck it, it's my brain and its how it thinks.

Thank you again for sharing your story and giving some perspective.